ThoughtCriminal

I've quit adderall for 2 weeks now, after using on and off for roughly 10 years. The premise of this thread worries me because I do not want to settle for a less perfect version of myself. I am still highly motivated in improving in all aspects of my life, but find that my abilities to focus are suffering tremendously. While I can read articles regularly and stimulate my curious mind throughout the day through various intellectual hobbies and channels, my ability to focus on work-related projects has taken a huge hit. I am not willing to allow myself to be anything less than perfect when it comes to the sphere of my career, but I am also equally (if not more) unwilling to rely on adderall for the rest of my life to maintain a facade that it has helped me construct. I am hoping that all the dust will settle in a matter of time, and that ultimately, I will be able to pick things back up at work without a continual reliance on this drug.