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I too went through many relapses before I finally quit. I don't think I ever made it more than 2 days without a relapse. When I did finally quit, it wasn't really by my choice. It was discovered that I was taking the Dr I work for pre signed prescription pads and writing out scripts to myself. I was fired, prosecuted, and went through my own personal hell. The withdrawl from cold turkey was pure HELL!! I went from 200-300mg per day to 0. Not only did I have to deal with the withdrawl, I also had to go through the darkest time of my life WITHOUT Adderal. It seemed impossible and at times I wanted to give up and even contemplated suicide. But you know what, I made it! July 30 will be 2 years FREE!! The point of my story is, I made it!!! Yes it was NOT easy and I too have severe ADHD and that came back even more severe than before. It seemed like I went my whole life with ADHD and I had managed it without meds for 30 some years, when I did get on meds, abuse them and then was without them, I had no idea anymore how to manage my symptoms. But here I am, almost 2 years later, I made it!! I have my life back!!!!! Best of all, I have myself back. You CAN do it!!! It may seem impossible but believe me, it can be done. Even in the worst situation. Best of luck to you

200-300mg, used for 2 years. July 30th will be 2 years clean. It probably took 4-6 months to begin to feel normal, but with the legal issues I was facing, I went into a deep depression, so I'm not sure how long the actual withdrawal effects were or just situational.

10. Lack of emotion 9. Love sleeping now. 8. Started to have health problems. 7. Became a vicious rage monster (which seem to be the ONLY emotion I ever felt) 6. I too have useless things I bought while on Adderall( I was very obsessed with sales. I would seem to buy anything as long as it was on sale) 5. I love not feeling like I have to be sneaky and deceitful. 4. I got arrested 3. Became a felon (2 felonies actually) 2. No more severe and illogical OCD. 1. Freedom to be myself and embrace my wonderful GIFT of ADHD:)

I used for at least 2 years.

I've been clean for almost 19 months. Everyday gets better but there are still bad days. I don't consider myself fully recovered because I still struggle. I too was a very heavy user. I even lost my 14 year career and became a convicted felon due to my actions to feed my addiction. I know in my experience though, the longer I am clean, the better I feel. Congratulations on nearing the one year mark. It is a tough battle. I had many relapses before I fina started my 19 month clean.

I havent posted in awhile but Im proud to say Ive been Adderall free for 485 days. As some of you might know, I worked in the medical field for 14 years. I ruined my career to feed my Adderall addiction. As a result of my actions, I am also now a convicted felon. I know that my case is the extreme but I hope that even just one person can be saved from Adderall by hearing how destructive addiction can be. I am finally ready to start talking about it. Please if anyone needs someone to talk to, Im here. Lisa

I was on 300mg per day for 2 years. It's not too late. I wish I would've quit sooner but I have been clean for awhile now and the health problems that I experienced while on Adderall have diminished and some have completely gone away. Best of luck to you. I never thought I would make it and I've been completely clean for almost a year now.

I don't think they have studied these medications long enough or on use in adult ADHD. A doctor told me once that I was" one of the most severe cases of ADHD seen in a girl." , and yet I have abused and misused Adderall more than a lot of people. I dislike the claims people make that "if you truly have ADHD, you won't become addicted to it." That's bull! I'm proof of that.

I spent over two years high on Adderall from morning to night. I was always in an "Adderall" state of mind. I know heroin, meth, and other addicts you were not on their drug of choice as much as I was on Adderall, but yet they are considered more of an addict that me. Being an Adderall addict has ruined major aspects of my life. I wish there was more awareness about it.

I've noticed since quitting Adderall, it seems that Adderall addiction is not taken that seriously. There is not much on the internet about it, no Facebook group or pages, and when I tell people about my addiction, they seem to have the same reaction. You know, the one where they look at you like "Adderall? Really? Is that it? That's not that bad." I think my goal after I rebuild my life will be to bring more awareness and seriousness to Adderall addiction.

As 2013 comes to a close, I say goodbye and look forward to 2014. I'm still adderall free and that is one of the few pluses of the year. I am going to start the new year out with a more positive attitude, a new outlook on life, and a new hope. I wish everyone the best for the new year.

I want to share my whole story, but for legal reasons I can't at this time. I hope to someday share everything in hopes that I can help others.

I want to share my whole story, but for legal reasons I can't at this time. I hope to someday share everything in hopes that I can help others.

I haven't been on here in awhile but I am still clean. I am dealing with the aftermath of my Adderall addiction. I lost my career of 14 years, I am facing 4 felony charges, my life has forever changed and will never be the same. Why? Because I was too stupid to quit Adderall before it got to the point of no return. For those of you who are pondering quitting, JUST DO IT!! I am going through the worst hell of my life OFF of Adderall!!! Do it now before it sucks the life out of you!!!! Do it now before you have to not only go through withdraw, but go through withdraw AND have your life fall apart at the same time!! Just please do it before you end up like me, losing everything and starting from the ground up!

I think it's been about 6 months but I don't remember the exact date that I quit.

I haven't been on here in awhile but I am happy to say that I am still clean. That doesn't mean it's been all great. I still find myself struggling with the cravings but I have not and have no plans on giving in. I just remind myself of all that I lost while on Adderall and I am still paying for what I did while on it too. Addiction sucks and I know that I have a long ways to go until I can say that I am a recovered addict. I am still a recovering addict and I have to tell myself this everyday or else it would be so easy for me to slip back into it. The last 2 months have been some of my worst and I still did not relapse so that tells me that I am getting stronger than my addiction. I hope to always be stronger but I have to take it one day at a time. This way I don't become overwhelmed and give myself an excuse to use again. I will try to be more active on this site again. It always helps having support

Thank you everyone. Sometimes you just need others perspective on things

I haven't posted in awhile. The good news is I'm still clean and sober, the bad news, the mistakes I made while on Adderall are catching up to me. I've lost my job of 14 years. I'm most likely black balled in the medical community and have ruined my career. For those of you who are not ready to quit, DO IT! DO IT NOW! Do not wait until you cause a string of problems. I hate Adderall! I hate myself more for letting it control me and ruin me.

I had a love/hate relationship with Adderall. I do have a nickname for it, ORANGE DEVIL!. I view Adderall as a demonic force. Everything is great at first then slowly but surely, the life will be sucked out of you. You will be needing Adderall just to even function half way. It's an evil substance that can make a person evil, emotionless and a total bitch (or asshole). I have been clean for a few months and I still get pissed off when I see parents putting their children on it. I run a Facebook page and somebody posted on it about how ADHD drugs have been proven to make ADHD kids less likely to abuse drugs. I deleted it immediately. I have ADHD, the only drug I ever abused was Adderall an ADHD MEDICATION. Sorry for the rant, just in a pissy post Adderall mood.

As many of you know from my previous posts, I have a Facebook page in which the goal is to put a positive view on ADHD. My next step would be to create a page about ADHD addicts. I don't feel I am to that point in my recovery yet, but it is something that I would like to do in the future. It wouldn't be as anonymous as this but I could create a closed group. Please, if anyone has any imput, feel free to ask. Thanks

Ally how are you doing now? I understand where you are coming from about taking high doses of the Adderall and now achieving your desired effect. I came off of a 90-270mg per day x 2 years. It sounds very high to a lot of people, and it did cause all of the shitty side effects without the positive ones. I was prescribed 90mg per days but I usually ended up taking more than that. I had to quit cold turkey. The step down method never worked for me. I would always end up taking "just one more." That usually ended up being 5-6 more of the 30mg IR. Yes those sickly sweet tasting 'Orange Devils." Towards the end, I could barely swallow those without gagging. I think my body was rejecting them but my mind still wanted them. I hope you are doing good still.

Thank you. It's good to feel that you are not the only person that goes through this.

I haven't been on here in awhile. The good news is that I did NOT relapse, the bad news is I almost ended up in a psych ward. Did anyone else go into a psychosis months after quitting? My husband and therapist think it could be that I had numbed myself for 2 years and didnt feel emotion. When I quit, the numbness was gone and the emotions were too. I didn't know how to handle feeling again and long story short, I went a little (ok more than a little) nuts! I have never had a melt down like I did. It was like I just broke and snapped. Soooo... I guess my point is, has anyone else had this happen or am I just the odd one( like always) ?

The children with behavior problems and who defiantly ignore adults and other authority figures are actually ODD(Oppositional Defiant Disorder). I saw a comparison study that showed the difference. However, those children are being mislabeled as ADHD. Most doctors even seem to not know the difference. I think that is why ADHD has a bad stigma attached to it. So in reality, doctors aren't even sticking to the original "disorder" that they in the medical community defined themselves. This is very disturbing. A licensed Psychiatrist use to be the only medical doctor allowed to make the diagnosis as "ADHD". Now you don't even have to have an M.D. to prescribe powerful addicting medication. D.O, NP, PA's can prescribe with no problem. This to me is very disturbing and seems very unethical as a medical professional myself. Also, I have yet to have a M.D. admit that Adderall and other stimulants even have adverse effects. Really??? What the fuck are they teaching in medical school??? All of my symptoms that developed were related to Adderall and not one of the doctors that I worked for would admit that. The more research I do, the more I get pissed off at how blind and irresponsible medical professionals who are suppose to help us are hurting us. They even get a licensed to do this. Back on track about the kids in school, I say, let's bring the paddle back to the kids who are DELIBERATELY distracting the class, and let the ones who are creative and have other wonderful skills BESIDES reading thrive on their gifts.

I have been doing a lot of researching on the topic of ADHD. (I also become obsessive with something, but the good thing is, I am able to find a lot of information in a short amount of time. ) It seems like more recent studies are showing that the "disorder" that is associated with ADHD is actually NOT a disorder with the person, it is a disorder in SOCIETY. Society has drilled it into our heads that in order to be considered smart and normal, you have to 1-read well, 2-sit still, follow rules. In truth, that happens not to be the case. I was watching a video today from an author who has ADHD and dyslexia. He could not read at 12 years old. His high school guidance counselor told him that he had a 50/50 chance of of graduating, and if he did, he would either be incarcerated or flipping burgers. He went on to an Ivy League College, graduated with a 4.0 and has written books. He explains the ADHD mind perfectly and how it is not a defect at all. Everyone does not learn the same way and we all have unique gifts. Getting A's and being a good reader does not make you smart. How you use your gift is what gives you the power to be successful. Sorry, I know this is an addiction website but I found it very interesting since I started the subject of ADHD. So, while stimulants calm some, and give others energy, the main point is that they should have NEVER been produced and distributed to children, adolescents and adults. This drug has only created many more problems.