sleepyT

Hello, Thanks so much for your inspiring story. It's comforting to know that it can be done!

Finally, a site where I can feel not so alone with this ADDERALL addiction. I appreciate everyone sharing and I hope you know that you're helping others. Yes, even in your misery, you are a making a difference. I have not yet quit. I run out of my perscription about 10 days in to it and then I supplement with narcotics, shopping, and now lottery tickets. I am not sure what I am to be called - MULTIPLE ADDICT. I used to be on Adderall and then my psychiatrist changed it to Vyvanse. A bit different, but same outcome. Love the drug. What can I say it makes me feel like the "best me". Of course, that does not last long and pretty soon I am just chasing the "best me" and spending hours and hours enjoying what I am doing and thinking I am going to change the world with an article or a painting, but they never get done. I have no idea what I do for hours, but more than not, I have nothing to show for it. This drug is kicking my butt and I don't want to stop. That's the problem. But, I have to. Thankfully, I have not yet completely ruined my life - I have, however, turned in to a person I do not like or respect and I am ashamed, scared, and alone with this. I can't tell my husband as I have already been through rehab once and I am afraid he will leave me if I come clean. I don't know what to do. But, I do know what to do. I just don't want to do it. So glad, I now have a place to come to hear other people's stories. It really helps. Thanks. Good Luck to you ALL!