MrsIsa4031

after going to church and studying the book of Romans, I started to wonder if I was feeling the Holy Spirit or the effects of adderall? after a couple years, I finally got the courage to ask God to reveal what he wants me to do. he answered me alone and clear. I told my doctor. I took the rest in like 2 days (15), and now I'm on day 7 of sobriety. i'm attending AA meetings. it's pretty miserable. but I want to rely on GOD and yield to the Spirit, not the flesh. I just have to get through this phase. anyways, I can't unring the bell on telling my doctor that I have a substance abuse issue and basically cut my main, only supply. for me I knew that I was beyond addicted. I abuse adderall and adderall abuses me and I love it and that's sick and I can't in good conscience believe God is able to use me in his way when i'm habitually abusing an amphetamine. I hope it feels better soon.