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  1. Something needs to change. today.

    I'll quit cigs eventually, probably with the patch, because it worked for me once in the past. The thing that dragged me back to smoking was actually adderall; it was 10 times as challenging to not smoke when I was juked up on the pills. So far, I haven't taken a pill for 6 days. I have no energy or focus to work on the things I need to. When will I be able to?
  2. Am I not ready for this?

    This is a difficult situation for me to judge, mostly because of your age, and the fact that your parents probably put you on it. I was in a similar position when I was your age(with other meds), and most likely needed some sort of medication to control myself; instead, I chose to not take the pills more often than not. If I were in your position, I would talk to your parents about how you feel. Don't just go off the meds cold turkey, you really should talk to a doctor. If grades are a huge concern, there are plenty of other ADD/ADHD medications that are stimulant free, like stratera. Also, Vvyvance is an alternative. Not that I'm saying you should be on something- that's for YOU to decide! Personally, I quit adderall a few days ago, and I won't go back, but at the same time, I wouldn't be where i am today without it. You're a smart kid, talk it out with your parents or a doctor. Good luck.
  3. Something needs to change. today.

    Thanks for the post, Edie! Just finished day 2 and still going strong. I was attempting to quit cigarettes at the same time, but decided to put that off until I can function with adderall. That's the kind of mentality I have: do everything at once; 100% or nothing... that was always my mentality- even prior to my dabbling with amphetamines. Regardless, I'm going to crush this reliance on something to accomplish what's necessary. Quick question: when you said "... all the posts I have come accross on this site that talk about creativity everyone has the same message...it killed their ability to draw, write, play/write music...", did you mean that adderall killed creativity? Or quitting adderall killed their creativity? I'll try to overcome it either way, but it would be good to know what I'm in for. At this point, rolling out of bed and getting in the shower requires an immense impetus of effort, let alone working on a symphony movement.
  4. Hey guys, My life has been spinning out of control for a while now, without me even knowing it. I've been taking adderall for probably close to 10 years, although I'm not sure exactly. This is mostly because in my younger years, I was a very hyperactive troublemaker, and was on quite a few different medications as a teenager. Initially, I didn't really take the adderall, I would just sell it to friends; but somewhere down the road, I started taking my daily full prescribed dosage(60mg XR), and even surpassing that. I think it hit me that I have a problem when I went to Paris for a summer job opportunity in june/july... a single day didn't go past in which I took any less than 80. I'm chain smoking like crazy, and feel like my skin has aged a decade in the past year (please tell me that is something that can be remedied...). In the past, I've always ridden the roller coaster- binge and dive- but as time goes on, I'm getting crazier and crazier with it. Ultimate horror story: one time, to get something important done on a strict deadline, I took probably 300 mg in 24 hours. I was pacing around like a lunatic, sweating and chain smoking. So it's clear that I have to stop this, the person I want to be is someone who can accomplish what is necessary WITHOUT adderall. However, I do have extreme concerns. I'm still a student in college, going for Music Composition("classical" music), and my semester starts soon. I feel like it could be a stupid idea to quit now, or just a set up for failure. There is ALOT of pressure to succeed this year, because my graduate school auditions will be next fall, etc. Also, I think it should be known that I probably haven't written any music without the use of adderall in a VERY long time(if ever, possibly). Frankly, it scares me alot, but at the same time, I feel like I've been running in circles for years. Maybe this is what I need to do with my life... either way, let me know what you all think; I'll probably need some sort of support, because I've been pushing everyone who cares about me away for the past year. Thanks alot.