Hi everyone,
I have been taking Adderall for about 2 years and have decided to quit. While Adderall has helped me greatly the past couple of years, I feel like I have lost part of myself. I feel like I have become more serious, instead of the goof that I once was. Adderall has brought on more anxiety than I used to have, but the benefits of Adderall always outweighed the anxiety for me.... until now. I have finished grad school, moved to a new location and started my career. I want to begin my life without Adderall.
Adderall has actually been my little, dark secret. Other than my shrink, no one knows that I have been taking it (not even my boyfriend). I come from a family that is very against medication unless it is used for life or death. I fear my boyfriend would judge me for it, because he hates ADHD drugs. It has been the only thing I have kept from him. I hate this dark secret and I want to live life without it. I feel like I am at a place in my life where I can persevere through it without the drug... or at least try.
Now I am wondering what the best way to step down is. Because I moved, I no longer have a doctor. My shrink just closed his practice as well. My daily regimen for taking Adderall was 20mg in the morning and 5mg in the afternoon. I have cut back to only taking the 20mg pills this past week. I have been sluggish, but haven't stepped back up. I am wondering what the best way to step down with 5mg IR pills would be? I have about 20 of those left. I have also been taking multivitamins every day to help give me something.
Any advice? I am scared (terrified, really) of this new transition and would love some advice and/or support as I have no one to talk to about it.
Thank you.