I decided to tell my sister about my addiction. Having someone know (because I've kept it from everyone) will hopefully make the problem harder to ignore and force me to take the next steps to finally quit. At least I hope. Anyway... So, I'm trying to explain why I take adderall (way too many times a day, not that it matters). She doesn't understand why I don't "just stop". I think it's difficult for non-addicts to understand. And rightfully so. I mean, I know what I'm doing is wrong. And I know I shouldn't be doing it. But logic is squashed every time. And I don't know how to help her understand.
I want to be prepared when I talk to her again. Instead of just saying, I don't know how to explain it. It's just not that easy to quit. This is the best explanation I have been able to think of so far:
It's similar to the feeling of being really thirsty. It's uncomfortable and something that can be fixed by having a glass of water or another drink. Ignoring your body's need for fluids isn't an option. When I'm thirsty, I drink something. Just like everyone else. When I'm really hungry, I know I have to eat something. That's how I feel without adderall. The feeling is unbearable. And I can make it go away with a pill (or 3). It almost doesn't feel like an option. My body needs it... It's just something I need to survive now. At least, that's how it feels anyway. If that makes sense??
What do you guys think? I would love to hear from anyone. How would you describe it? How did you help people who love you understand you're behavior? I'm new at this...