I'm definitely not going to see the doctor tomorrow nor am I ever filling a prescription again. I took my last adderall at 5pm today. And that's it.
I know I can quit. I remember what I was like when I wasn't on it - I felt more like "me." I know for the next few days I'll be a little tired and more hungry than normal, but it's not unbearable. I just worry about my mental performance - I have so much going on right now and clients to attend to (I'm a freelance web designer). When I'm not on adderall I feel like just laying on the sofa and watching tv. Not building websites and doing the billions of other things I do on adderall.
I always ask myself where do people get the energy to go to work, make things, take care of life, etc. without drugs like adderall??? Coffee seems like such child's play and yet you hear of so many people saying "I can't get started in the morning without my coffee." And I'm just thinking, lol, coffee? Ever tried adderall, that will really get you going!" I don't mean to make light of this situation at all, it's just that I don't know if I can ever get back to my super-productive self. And if that's the case then I'm ruined professionally and financially.
Tomorrow is going to be a really scary day for me. I always knew this day was going to have to come. But I always thought I had more time to "prepare."