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Hello everyone! Today I realized that I have been free of Adderall for a little over 2 years now, a milestone I genuinely thought I wasn't capable of accomplishing. What was once a centerpiece of my life is now just a memory of a lifestyle I used to live. These days I don't think about Adderall much at all, because the craving that used to be so prominent is now gone. This change was gradual but enormous over the course of these years. Before I quit Adderall, I was certain that I wouldn't be able to keep a job and feared that quitting Adderall would make me useless and dumb. This has turned out to be one of the greatest lies I ever believed. For those of you who are currently trying to quit Adderall, this is what worked for me. A month prior to quitting two years ago I had truly hit rock bottom. I was stuck at was I thought was a dead-end job, had no friends, no girlfriend, no college experience, I didn't care at all about hygiene, and zero motivation to do anything at all aside from playing video games. My days consisted of waking up late, popping Adderall, working for 8 hours, playing video games until late at night, and then repeating everything the next day. I lived with my parents, who I also had a terrible relationship with. I avoided people I knew as much as possible because I was always in an anxious funk from taking Adderall. I never slept, I never wanted to eat, and I had zero energy until I took Adderall that day. Prior to this successful attempt to quit this drug, I had tried MANY times within the past 5 years to get off of it. The longest I ever made it was 5 days and the cycle was always the same: hopeful/optimistic the first day, anxiety by day two, eating everything in the fridge by day three, and day four I could do NOTHING but sleep (the WHOLE DAY). However, after one particularly bad week (out of a year that I hated every day of my life) I decided my life couldn't possibly be worse off of Adderall than it was on it and I tossed the pills. But what was different about this time as opposed to the failed attempts before? This time I hated my life so much on Adderall, that I didn't care what happened when I stopped taking it. It wasn't until I hit rock bottom that I sobered up enough to regain my self-control. After reading this amazing post: I tried to the best of my abilities to follow the advice and looking back at my experience, everything in this post is SPOT ON. The first month actually did seem easy and then suddenly three months in I realized "This is really who I am now" and I feared that I would never be back to normal. After this, the cravings really set in for me. I began to think things like "I could do this task way faster with Adderall than I could now" or "I feel so tired, If I was on Adderall I would be wide awake right now" and so I did something that really pulled me through these moments: I set a goal for myself that no matter what, I wasn't going to take Adderall for a year. If at the end of the year I still wanted to go back, then I would allow myself to. And that is exactly what I did, I stopped taking it for a full year. However, in that one year, I got back into shape physically, got promoted at work, and started making friends again. I had made so much progress off of Adderall, that I was worried that taking it again would destroy the things I worked so hard to obtain off of it. It was almost as though being sober was my new addiction in an ironic way. Skip forward to now, and I can personally say that quitting Adderall has saved my life. I was NEVER this happy in all of the 8 years I took Adderall. I am currently 2 years into my college degree with a 4.0-grade average, I am dating a wonderful girl, I am able to make friends again, I moved out of my parents' house, I got promoted at work, I can SLEEP at night, I'm no longer deathly skinny, and I have the motivation to get to where I want to be. All of these things were what I desperately wanted to do during my years on Adderall, but I was so consumed by my addiction that I just couldn't. My life after this two-year mark is so much better than I had imagined. Of course, it didn't happen overnight, but two years isn't really that long. I am fully convinced that if I was able to quit this drug, anybody could. If anybody out there is struggling to quit Adderall, PLEASE DON'T listen to your doubts and insecurities. You CAN do it and life can be happy for you again. It is a long journey, but the most rewarding journey you will go through. I challenge you to make a goal to QUIT for at least a year. If you aren't convinced you are on the right path then go back to taking it.