BeHereNow Posted May 28, 2013 Report Share Posted May 28, 2013 (I'm posting this to hold myself accountable. If I say it publicly then it has to happen right?) Well I've been working on this project for a couple months now. I've been fighting major writer's block, but also finding ways around it. I've done lots of careful thoughtful research and I'm way over the page limit of course, which means I'm just really inspired and probably in over my head. But for some reason I haven't been able to bring myself to hand it in and be done even though it's late. This is the last thing standing between me and finishing my first adderall-free semester of grad school. I think I've been working on it slowly because I'm scared it won't turn out as good as my work used to on adderall. I think I might also be self-sabotaging a little. And maybe I care a little too much about it. Maybe I'm too much of a perfectionist. But all of this is about to change TODAY. I WILL finish and submit this project TODAY. I'm going to make it crappy.... REALLY REALLY CRAPPY. I'll post an update once it's done, and no sooner. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted May 28, 2013 Report Share Posted May 28, 2013 Alright then. We're all waiting. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Motivation_Follows_Action Posted May 29, 2013 Report Share Posted May 29, 2013 Aaaand? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted May 29, 2013 Author Report Share Posted May 29, 2013 JUST SUBMITTED IT!!!! Everything always takes longer than I expect, and it's not 100% perfect, but I JUST GOT IT DONE!!! This means I have officially just finished my first adderall-free semester!!!! I survived 3 intense grad seminars AND teaching my own courses!!-- WITHOUT STUPID ADDERALL!!!!!! So far I have an A and an A- and an incomplete that hopefully will also turn into something good-- but even if it doesn't--I KNOW I did my best and put a lot of effort in, and I'm happy with that. Slow and steady and patient. This project has caused me sooo many PAWS days and cravings. But sending it in today I know it's a good thing I'm not on adderall anymore, because if I were I'd be obsessing over all the details of this thing for at least the next month or two. Feels pretty good to actually get something done for once! Quitting is so worth it!! Also: Yesterday was my adderall-free anniversary-- 5 months clean!!!!! YEAH! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted May 29, 2013 Report Share Posted May 29, 2013 great news. I was just checking on this site to see if you'd posted yet, and was happy to see this! Congrats on surviving the semester!! Those grades should prove to yourself of your awesomeness without any crutch in your life. We have PMd each other about how tough it is to plow through the semester as recovering adderall addicts. I am really proud of you. Take a deep breath now and celebrate, for the time being you are free! And how awesome was that feeling when you clicked submit and got that paper out of your hands permanently?? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lea Posted May 29, 2013 Report Share Posted May 29, 2013 CONGRATULATIONS !!!!! Mission accomplished. I feel so proud of you -- I'm coming up on 5 months in June and have not accomplished half as much but am so inspired by reading your post. Good for you! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted May 30, 2013 Report Share Posted May 30, 2013 Congrats on your final submission and 5 months adderall-free!!! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted May 30, 2013 Author Report Share Posted May 30, 2013 Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement friends-- It was pretty terrifying and I didn't think this was possible. I say it all the time but I have YOU to thank for this post-adderall success 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Motivation_Follows_Action Posted May 31, 2013 Report Share Posted May 31, 2013 You go girl! Seems like there are a few really great stories of freedom from adderall + academic and professional success on here this last week. I was thinking how cool it is to have some wins that show what can be accomplished if you believe in yourself and life beyond withdrawals and cravings. I'm so proud of you! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post BeHereNow Posted June 4, 2013 Author Popular Post Report Share Posted June 4, 2013 Ok just a little update on this success story: I now have all my final grades back! I was so worried that quitting adderall would fuck over my GPA. I was so dependent on adderall, I thought I needed it and could not function without it etc. Anyway, turns out my GPA has gone up!!!! This quitting semester I somehow pulled the best GPA I've gotten in all 5 semesters of grad school. It's official: QUITTING ADDERALL IMPROVED MY GPA AND THE QUALITY OF MY WORK. (Not to mention the quality of my life.) 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cat Posted June 4, 2013 Report Share Posted June 4, 2013 This is REALLY inspiring to me today... needed to hear an awesome success story like this. The best kind. Congrats! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted June 4, 2013 Report Share Posted June 4, 2013 Occasional, Congrats! That is amazing. Adderall is a liar that says we need it to succeed. You've proven that theory wrong. Well-done!!!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lea Posted June 4, 2013 Report Share Posted June 4, 2013 A - MAZE - ING !!!!! This really is such an inspiration !!!!!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Motivation_Follows_Action Posted June 5, 2013 Report Share Posted June 5, 2013 I can't do fancy dancing bananas, but I am really impressed by this, occasional 1. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted June 5, 2013 Author Report Share Posted June 5, 2013 Thanks friends <3 I love how we celebrate success stories and share our challenges on here, and encourage and inspire each other. I was pretty surprised I pulled this off. Looking back on how, I think it was all a matter of patience and spending the time, even if it takes longer, and also getting shit done (make it crappy!) Maybe I was also working harder/better because I knew I didn't have that crutch anymore, and also had no fake adderall-induced self confidence, so it was all on ME and I may have started putting even more into everything. The fact that my anxiety / stress / overwhelmed feelings are reduced helps me 'work smarter not harder' now that I'm clean. I think you're right on Ashley, our successes show what a terrible liar adderall is. We are so much smarter and stronger than that soul crushing drug! It really doesn't make anyone smarter, and it doesn't necessarily lead to better results. P.S. I have no idea how to do them either but I do appreciate the smilies! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted June 5, 2013 Report Share Posted June 5, 2013 Ok just a little update on this success story: I now have all my final grades back! I was so worried that quitting adderall would fuck over my GPA. I was so dependent on adderall, I thought I needed it and could not function without it etc. Anyway, turns out my GPA has gone up!!!! This quitting semester I somehow pulled the best GPA I've gotten in all 5 semesters of grad school. It's official: QUITTING ADDERALL IMPROVED MY GPA AND THE QUALITY OF MY WORK. (Not to mention the quality of my life.) I responded to this post, and its not there I just want to say, really, occasional1, fantastic job. I know you worked really hard for this. And adderall free! And you are debunking the widespread myth that adderall equals academic success. Congratulations!!!! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Samuel Posted June 26, 2013 Report Share Posted June 26, 2013 Ahhhhh this post makes me so happy ahhhhh. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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