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Thanks forum people. After reading nonstop for two days around here I did something that is, to me, really huge. During my last stint with Adderall, got hacked, entered psychosis of epic proportions thinking my whole home network and every device in it was compromised. Luckily for me now, I guess I felt it necessary to document the whole thing in pictures. I'm talking several thousand on USB sticks, sd cards, hard drives I removed. Ever since the day I abruptly quit addys two years ago, I haven't been able to bring myself to look at any of it.

I did tonight. Lord almighty picture after picture videos etc of different setting screens on touch devices, code from laptops, none of it organized. None makes sense. Like in the movie Pi. The most cringeworthy was some short video of me with the camera facing my kindle screen, trying to do... Something.... My hands were shaky and couldn't hit the buttons right so I would tap in the same place over and over. Hard to watch.

Thinking of an office cleanse and bonfire in the pit outside. No joke.

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This reminds me of when I hallucinated so bad I thought I had scabies and head lice.  I thought bugs were falling off my eyelashes and out of my skin. This of course was the worst trip I ever had on adderall and landed me in the ER and psych ward of course, but during this stint I washed my hair several times and ran out of clean "non contaminated" towels/clothing items to wrap my hair in.  I thought if I didn't have a wrap around my head, the lice would fall out or something insane. Anyhow, I did have a pair of women's new underwear I bought in a hanes plastic pack as part of my "decontamination process".  I wrapped my head in the underwear and sent a picture message to my friend.  She had no idea what was wrong with me, but said I looked like I just got out of the beauty salon.  Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.   We should hashtag these episodes #badadderalltrip or something, lol. At least we can relate in our insanity.

 

Great day to be clean!  Hope you enjoyed the bonfire! :)

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Wow @Liltex41 that is insane and sounds so familiar. As far as the paranoia I mean...

 

I can match that... I thought towards the end that the hackers were listening to every phone conversation. I started buying burner phones and then thought those were compromised... Ended up trying to call the police at a payphone because I thought it was the only way to talk on a non-compromised line... But even when I was doing that I thought they were listening. They?

 

#badadderalltrip

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