iwish

This is my story..new to the site

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I started taking Adderall when I was 14 years old. My mom was a pediatrician and ever since I can remember, I was prescribed to some sort of ADD / ADHD medication. I remember having to go to the nurse every day during grade school but I am not sure what medication it was for. I have been prescribed to ritallin, concerta, straterra, and Adderall. My mom passed away when I was 14 years old and at that point in time I was taking 60 mg of Adderall on a daily basis. I have continued to take that amount, daily, to date. I am now 25 years old, about to turn 26.

Adderall has become something that I am dependent on. I recently (last 3 years) have started abusing it, and I want off. The reason I joined this site is because I need someone to relate to…

Recently I have been taking more than I am prescribed and I have developed a fear for the days (weekends – non work days) that I need to set aside in order to offset the days I have over used on. I have become terrified of these days that I will not be able to take my medication on.

Last weekend, I went cold turkey. I need to do this for the next 3 weekends in order to have enough medication to get me through my work weeks until my next prescription can be filled.

 It was hard, but not quite as bad as I thought it would be. It is a terrifying thing to think about life without my medication. I was offered free NBA tickets by my work for next weekend, but I declined because I knew I would not be on my medication and likely not feel up to it. I go to a work out class most Saturdays with a friend of mine and as soon as I realized I was out, I came up with a bunch of excuses to get me out of the next couple classes…

I don’t want to live this way. I made it through one weekend but I need support to continue this process. If anyone can relate, please comment…

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Hi iwish,

i can relate to what is happening to your weekends. Not because I ran out early but because I was so tired every Saturday and Sunday from being on addy all the work week that if I didn't take a little addy on the weekends I would sleep straight through and miss the whole weekend. 

I'm clean now and this is no longer a problem for me. I'm awake on weekends naturally and it's flipping awesome.  

I hope you are doing aright and still thinking about quitting. I've come to a realization that we have two choices. Quit or die. It really is that serious because one cannot take this stuff forever. Old bodies cannot handle addy. So you will eventually have to quit anyway and it will be much easier to do it while you are young. 

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