Jade Jace

Trying to get off adderall without CRASHING

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Heller people!!

My name is Jade!

So my journey with this devil drug...

I started taking adderall when I was 8 years old, had no idea what it did or whatever but my mom didn't give a shit as long as she didn't have to deal with me.

i am now almost 24 and a single mother of 3 children! 

I have crashed so many times and just seriously feel like I can not even do anything I'm so weak without it and I can't do that rn I have like 0 family support and I know this medication has been ruining my life I recently got back on it and this last time was the worst crash I have ever been through. 

I wanted to be done so bad but it threw me into depression and I started drinking every day (mind you I've never done drugs like that!) I'm a smoker but I even wanted to quit smoking and that's nearly impossible when you're on adderall you barely eat so you need some kinda hand to mouth distraction! I drink so much soda and just extremely unhealthy, I need some advice or something I was sleeping so much and would literally be awake then pass out and this is while I'm still on it. My first month back on it from the terrible 3 month of being off of it! 

Constantly have headaches now started getting acne when I've never had acne this bad in my life. Geez I'm just done I want to know who I am with out this damn medication without feeling useless.

 

please help!!!!

 

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Hi Jade, welcome! I relate to your frustration. With adderall, we all at one point or another came to the realization that we didn't know how to live with or without it. Not knowing how to live without it is the really scary part. As a single mother of 3 with little support, it's going to be an uphill battle to stop using adderall, but you are definitely capable of it. You've taken the first step, which is coming here and admitting that its affecting your life negatively.

Unfortunately, I don't know of any way to completely avoid the crash. They can be really debilitating. Exercise, a lot of sleep, and eating well will help lessen the struggle, but it'll still be rough. I don't want to discourage you though. It's manageable. You just have to power through and know that it gets better. If there were an easy way to do this, this website wouldn't exist. It's tough! These forums are rich with tips and tricks, though... look through them for encouragement! You got this.

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We all definitely understand this struggle. Unfortunately, as cheerio mentioned, I don't think there is really any way to completely avoid the crash. The good  news is that you have already been able to quit for 3 months. That is HUGE! It takes time, but it is worth it! There is so much great support and advice on these forums. You really can do this :)    

 

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Feel we should all start a class action lawsuit against adderall manufactures espically those of you basically forced to take this stuff when you were children . It sounds like your family won't support you so you should probably go to NA meetings for help. I used a step down method which sort of helped avoid a huge crash but it was still hard once I stopped 100% for sure. I hope you find the strength to stop.

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You are in the right place! It was slow going for me too, I just rode it out. I was luckily detoxed in the hospital and psych ward, and was given anti-psychotics that really helped combat the depression. I am in an outpatient program as well, and attend AA as much as I can. 

Can you tell your doctor about your desire to quit? Support is very helpful, in my opinion. It's hard going it alone, and I also agree with NA meetings being a good place to get that. For me, at 50 days I started feeling well enough to exercise, which I can't express enough helps!!! But it's all on your timeline, I think it's important to listen to and respect our bodies and minds...we put ourselves through so much on this drug.  

You can do it, and you deserve happiness.

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I'm a mother, too, and I know it can be hard. The old me, the pre-mom me, would use Adderall to party all night, play video games, and to generally just get messed up. 

I don't do that now. Now I depend on it to wake up in the morning, clean the house, cook, and take care of my family. It was easier to quit before because I was using it to do other harm to myself. Now it's just Adderall doing the harm and I need to snap out of it! 

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