Hi, my dears. English is not my mother language so I'm sorry for the following mistakes.
I've been on adderall since I'm 13 years old and I'm about to turn 23. I've always been an artist and it was tempting to take more adderall to be able to focus 12 hours non-stop and create crazy masterpieces. And I don't even want to talk about how awesome I felt on adderall. But as all of you, I went through hell with it, developped anxiety and wanted to die every once in a while.
I was tired to be a psycho-awsome-not-so-awesome-sad kid, tired of my life going nowhere because of it. Because i was always abusig it. I've been on this forum several times before, reading your stories but i never had the guts to do it. And I finally did, 2 days ago.
The two first days were hell, I felt bad in my body, I slept all the day, wasnt even able to read for more tham 10 minutes... and this morning I forced myself to do at least the dishes, exercised a little bit and felt better. I motivated myself to go outside do things I had to do, did it.
I started to feel bad again, cried, tried to sleep to forget and when I woke up, I almost felt normal!!! I remembered I took fish oil in the morning without any kind of hope about it, I was just desesperated...but shit! Most of my withdrawal effects are gone, today I did more things that I was doing on a normal adderall day, and it's only day 3 ! I almost can't believe it, I took it during 10 years ! Seriously, today I was so happy that I cried. I can't wait to see how I'll feel in a month. I bought other natural stuff and also yerba mate, I'll try it tomorrow.