ConstantAwareness

I need a way to decide what's best . There are cons, but no where near some of the problems I've seen others describe. I think I'm self rationalizing but I need to decide once and for all. Maybe I can try setting limits but there's no such thing as a weekend user

I relapsed. Been using adderall once or twice a week for the past 6 weeks. And here I am in the same spot. About a week clean of the stuff, arguing back and forth in my head if I should continue to use occasionally because I haven't had any real problems. It isn't destroying my life. And I like the stuff. It's just Consuming my thoughts debating back and forth. I'm sick of living this way

Already twice I've turned it down...once by a person I just met before going to a club and another was a friend. I told both no and explained my new choice to my friend...was and still is extremely tempting..I'm hungover and I really wanted to say yes but didn't. So that's good. The lingering craving is annoying though. Trying to focus on some of my worst nights/experiences with adderall as motivation

I can rate in many ways to your experience, at this moment I feel like I have "beat the addiction." And that now it might be safe to try occasional use. That is definitely romanticizing. My only difference is that I cannot just cut it off. I have to find a way to resist on my own. Because honestly, I just know way too many people and friends over the years who I could ask. If I want to find I will find a way...have to just keep telling myself that one will lead to many . Even if it's down the road

Thank you. I have done that but it's hard to completely cut off source because I live in a college area. What do you all tell yourselves to stop the rationalization that "just once in awhile" is ok?

The aggressive behavior when drinking on adderall is the worst effect...

Hello, this is my first post but I have visited occasionally and read over the past few years Just as a background : I've been out of college for about a year I started using adderall from friends to study in my second year and it evolved to recreational binge usage . Upwards of 150mg on some days I have quit for months at a time over the past few years but always end up going back to some level of occasional use Sometimes only once a month, sometimes a binge every weekend for a month Never daily Adderall has caused me many problems and been my only focus for various short periods, it has lead to stress in relationships, negatively effected work performance , and lead to aggressive behavior. I have been totally clean for 2 months , but a majority of that time adderall was unavailable. It is now available if I ask a friend I am so afraid that I will soon be able to rationalize to myself that taking one to get something done (or much more likely recreationally) will be fine. I know that it will lead to more. I just love how I feel now and I think, well imagine how great you would feel if you took one. I know that how well things are going for me is a result Of my abstinence . WHAT METHODS DO YOU RECCOMEND TO STAY AWARE AND VIGILANT? It is so hard to remember the bad times to motivate myself .I want this time to be for good. I need long lasting techniques Thank you so much. I have done much research over the years but maybe this forum can help me stay on my current track