Stamper

Hi. I am just trying to get off of adderall for the first time since I started it 7 years ago. I am not sure that it is working for me to do this. Some back story: I have Complex PTSD (from childhood neglect) and a smoking case of generalized anxiety that I just started treating (just recognized as such) 4 months ago. I also compulsively pick at my skin. When I was diagnosed w C-PTSD iPad started researching it I realized that a LOT of the childhood symptoms were common to ADHD as well, which made me start to suspect that I had been misdiagnosed w ADHD originally. My GP has agreed as as I have been responding amazingly well to Zoloft (OMG, is this how normal people feel?! Not constantly attacking myself emotionally and physically - the picking), so we recently started a step down program to see if I could get off the adderall. I have gone from 50 mg down to 40 (big first step), down to 35 and now I am at 30 mg (each step taking 1 week). I have been finding that Day 3 of each step down seems to be the hardest - I get really irritable and ill humored in addition to being tired. The 'blackness' seems to pass after Day 3 and I feel like I have been adjusting ok otherwise. But now I am at Day 4 of 30 mg and a wreck! My anxiety has been going strong for 2 full days now - I am having to take tranquilizers again (prescribed for those occasional flare ups), I am picking my skin until I look like a freak, I am verging on tears, anxious, hyper vigilant (a primary symptom of PTSD) and feel like I am in a tailspin. I am seriously considering bailing out on this step down program. What I need your thoughts on is: is this just a normal part of withdrawal (at least given my history)? Could it be bc I am stepping down too fast? Do I need to just tough it out? Has anyone had experiences like mine? I could really use some help. This is so hard. I don't want to live in this state of constant anxiety and agitation and self loathing. Ps. I have been under the care of a great therapist as well. W are working in the self loathing, etc. I am really just here to figure out the Adderall part of the equation. Thanks!