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  1. 35 days clean-just curious

    Man, I appreciate that insight. Hit me like a ton of bricks, but in a good way. That one sent me to the other side of the looking glass. Thanks for sharing/caring.
  2. I am now 35 days clean from a daily regimen of 50mg vyvanse along with 20mg IR Adderall. Cant say I abused or was addicted, but decided to quit due to being too absorbed in meaningless tasks, an increase in antisocial behavior, and the daily comedown which mimicked depression. Aside from the acute lethargy of the first 2 weeks, it has not been that bad. I have gained about 5 pounds, but that was over the holidays. I have managed to walk for 30 minutes a day, and have had the luxury to nap or sleep in due to a light work schedule due to end-of-the yr cyclical nature of my profession (CPA). I had used almost daily for about 6 yrs with very few breaks, although I had attempted to quit 4 or 5 times, but usually resumed before 30 day mark. My question is this-how much more upside from a neurochemical standpoint do I have? If I was "reset" and back to normal, it would be enough to sustain the effort to quit, but just wondering if this is "as good as it gets" or do I have some more recovery upside as it relates to depression, energy, sleep, etc. thanks.
  3. I am a 54 yr old accountant who has been prescribed a combination of vyvanse with an adderall booster taken almost on a daily basis over the past 5 yrs. And while i have never abused either medication, the dosage of vyvanse has been at 70mg for the last few yrs, and the adderall IR is at 30mg, which I usually took half of in the morning and the other half in the afternoon if I needed it.I've not gone over these amts, and it seems to work well without need to go up. That said, I realized I am pegged out at the high-end of clinical standards.i also remember when lesser doses lost their effectiveness before, but for some reason it seems I reached some level of equilibrium. My reasons for quitting are 2-fold: the evening crashes mimic the worst parts of depression (a lifelong battle) and the drug makes me more anti-social than I want to be. It pulls me too deep into work-related projects, well beyond the daily work hours, thus robbing me of time and energy to spend with my family. Today marks one week since I took my last dose. Spiritually I feel good about going in this new direction, but the lack of energy, flat affect, and scatterbrained focus is a bit rough at the moment. And I will say, regrettably, I've been here before, whereby i go back on to the medication due to sudden weight gain, new projects at work, etc..I am going to try and push on through and get on the other side of it this time. I flushed the rest and canceled my next appt with a doc. She would not be supportive of my cessation, but it's my life, not hers. On the weight gain part-do others find the ability to reverse the weight gained in withdrawal with normal exercise and sensible eating? I've walked everyday and cant say I'm eating much more than normal I hope its just my metabolism resetting itself. I will fight that battle next, but first I want to get my neurochemistry restored. This site is a huge benefit. thanks.