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The picture is above my head on the wall behind my bed. Everyday I see this picture I will remember why I put it there

This IS the LAST time I will relapse I'm hanging up a picture of my niece and its going to remind me that life is more important. Someone please help I really need something to help me

Adderall destroys your love and that's all that matters in this life. I need to remember this.

Please someone tell me how you stopped a relapse I'm so scared and so sad that I have to start over tomorrow and once this dose wears off I hope I don't lose sight of how important this is to me I CAN NOT afford this my life will be ruined. Note to self "you have a niece now who loves you. Don't keep killing yourself and your personality she needs to grow up with the real you the loving you".

I'm so afraid of ruining my life. The first few times I quit I was excited and confident. This time has to be different I can't go through this again. I dont know what to do I want to trust myself so bad but i can't believe how quickly I lost control

I know I can stop I have for months before but somehow my thinking slowly changes. This is whats seriously scaring me I don't trust myself i lose sight because my thinking gets worse from the abuse I did too it. This relapse I remember barely being able to sleep just thinking about waking up and getting the script It took over all logic I knew there was no stopping. Its really scaring me

I'm on the verge of a panick attack I can barely breath

This is not ok. I seriously am terrified of this drug. I relapsed again and got a script a week ago. I'm so afraid of how it makes me slowly change my mind. This keeps happening I can't take it anymore

This really made me feel a lot better today thank you

The number one thing I want to remember is how horrible it feels to be this tired when the rest of the world and your friends are feeling great. Note to self JARED!! You will be tired for a longggg time while everyone else is enjoying life. The energy used on adderall is life energy you will be missing dearly don't waste it anymore its the most precious thing you have

Thanks guys! It feels so different\better knowing at least someone is out there who cares about how I feel through this. Its uusually such a lonely time for me. Well I decided now is the perfect time for this because I'm not going to school for a semester since my dad just passed away and me and mom had to move into an apartment. I'm going to use this time of change in my life to help reset my mind. Shortly I'm heading out to GNC and grabbing some Rhodiola rosea and DMAE. I have a huge interest in supplements and usually spend hours or days researching them when I stumbled upon one of interest. Yesterday I grabbed some garlic and liquid B Vitamin complex. So my plan is a multi vitamin, magnesium, zinc, garlic, b vitamins, Omega 3, DMAE and Rhodiola everyday. Its my amphetamine recovery plan

Is there a way to let your doctor know you want to cut yourself off? I literally talked to my doc once and he gave me a script and never seen him again he's not a very caring doctor

I would go into more detail about myself but honestly feel like shit at the moment. So I'll have more to say after I lay in bed intill I have work, without any sleep... I don't know how I end up getting a script again when for months I remember how much this sucks

Hey guys my name is jared. I'm 22 and was prescribed adderall about 2 years ago. Long story short, I started cycle of doing most of my script in about a week and then telling myself I'm done for About a month or two and then one stupid day I lose sight and think hey let's go get a script it's no big deal. Well here I am today didn't sleep all night and script is empty. I hope joining this site will remind me of how I feel today when that urge strikes again