Lee

After three years of being on and off adderall, I admit that I have a problem. I'm addicted. I have a prescription that gets re-filled every sixty days. I don't know where to go from here. I'm at the point now where a sixty day supply only lasts me ten. I've had four different experiences with chemically induced psychosis and my depression is just as intense as my mania. I need help and I'm to much of a coward to allow anybody to know the truths about my life. I habitually lie to myself and others about my issues and I don't trust myself take care of myself, not mentally nor physically, so as to see that I reach the age of thirty. I'm an Iraqi veteran. I've seen things that will never leave me and I carry a tremendous amount of guilt and shame over those things. They feed my addiction while they hide behind my false reality. I need advice.