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this addiction is so hard to break. it has drove me absolutely insane, for years now. I'm mentally, physically, emotionally a different person. I read on this website for hours the other night. 10 days ago, to be exact, and haven't touched a pill since. but it's a constant battle day in and day out to keep myself from just taking one, or a half, or some. the thought of adderall keeps coming to my mind, my friends take it. people at work take it, everywhere I turn its there. My doctor told me not to stop taking it, so I have refills sitting at the pharmacy that everyday I want to fill just to "have on hand" to comfort me. how can I make this urge go away? How can I pass these withdraws. I'm 7 months pregnant. the doctor told me to keep taking it, until the end of my pregnancy, but I can't, I cannot keep feeding myself these pills and expect to be okay. I have been on adderall for 3 years now, that I can remember. Before adderall I was buying vyvance from friends. it's just been an expensive on going addiction that I am finally ready to quit. any comments, suggesting, opinions would be so helpful.