I lied, today is day 8!! Thank you for all of your kind responses and support. Today is the first day my muscles went from just being sore to screaming in pain which I have been anticipating but it is still no fun.
My husband does know about my use and no he doesn't take it himself. I have tried to give him some in the past in an attempt to get some household projects done but he has always resisted. He does drink beer almost daily and smoke cigarettes and also smokes marijuana sometimes as well but mostly he is just addicted to working, which isn't a bad thing imo. He is as supportive as he can be I guess, he doesn't fully understand I don't think. On day 3 or 4 I had a freak out on him because he was supposed to bring home milk for the kids to have with dinner and he didn't show up and he was yelling at me like "why can't you get up and go get it, is that so hard?" and I yelled back "Tell me where my pills are because you are not supportive and this is why I still have to stay on them because I have no help!" He has been good ever since I just think sometimes he just thinks I am being dramatic. His brother in law is/was an alcoholic and has been clean for a year now so he knows a little bit about addiction from that. He doesn't get angry at me or complain at all when he comes home and nothing is cleaned and there is no dinner or fast food or pizza for dinner and when I do clean or make dinner he always tells me like, "the house looks great, dinner smells amazing" things like that so he really does try to be supportive I know.
I stay at home and work as a nurse every other weekend in a nursing home. Being at home is hard because it is easy to just do nothing a lot of days and to feel depressed like I am not moving forward like everyone else. I do have a best friend who I have told about quitting and I message with her daily and she is very encouraging to me everyday. I don't plan on being on Adderall for the rest of my life and I doubt I will start back up after baby. I plan to breastfeed for at least a year and I never ever want to go through this withdrawal ever again.
I did make dinner last night and tonight as well so I feel very accomplished!!! (& did dishes and cleaned the bathroom and washed and dried some clothes although they are just thrown on the bed waiting for me to fold them someday) My 4 year old is still in his pajamas though, so not everything gets done, but I don't feel discouraged!
This has been long and probably all over the place but I just wanted to say that I am so thankful for this amazing website, without it I don't know if I would have the courage to quit and the supportive community is an awesome resource! I have been reading a lot of posts, I'm just not a good commenter on account of my introvertedness, lol.