pdxpaul79

Thanks for the reply IFIHADKNOWN. I really appreciate that. I'm on day 5 and its tuff but i keep telling myself it will get better.

Hey everyone. On day 4 of quitting and physically i feel great but i feel bad about myself. I'm trying to find motivation just to get everyday things done it's been really tuff. For example. i have my kids for the next 2 days and i'm the most loving father and ALWAYS look forward to the days i have them. But today i had to tell myself several times to get up you have to get them. I guess what i'm asking is this last a long time. Is there anything helpful that others have done to get through this part.

Hey everyone I just read your replies and thank you so much for replying. I was really bad yesterday and disgusted with myself and was scared to tell anyone and I found this website. But after reading a lot of the people's stories I built up some courage and I came clean to my girlfriend that I have been with for 2 yrs and has been with me since I started this crap. I told her everything from lying about running out of my scipt to abusing it to taking my sons. She was amazing. She said she kinda had an idea but that she could see that the adderall was helping me. I told her it did but that I was abusing it and I knew if I didn't quit it would ruin us and my life. After I came clean I felt like this huge load of guilt and everything that goes with fall off my shoulders it felt amazing. So after a long talk she took my hand then she grabed my bottle of pills we went to the bathroom and she looked me in the face and said to me if you are read to quit here's the bottle. I grabed the bottle and dumped it. I did it. So as of right now im almost 1 day clean. I know its gonna be hard the next couple weeks but im gonna give this 200%.

Hello Everyone. Not sure where to start but i was just goggling i want to quit adderall and it brought me here. I'm a 35 yr old father of 2 beautiful kids and in good health. I have been on adderall since july of 2014 and i see myself already abusing it. I was prescribed 40 mg a day but im finding myself taking up to 80 mg to get through my day with work and when i have my kids which i know is an excuse. It makes me feel superman and that i can do anything. I had always heard about it then i had a friend that was prescribed it and we were out drinking and he had giving me one but that night he was telling me that i was totally and person with ADHD he said i had all the symptoms. So a few months later i was at a job and i guy i worked with said he was ADHD and that you have all the symptoms and he asked if i wanted one and i took it. I wish i never did. The way it made me feel was just amazing. I"m a person who get's excited easily just flips out always being forgetful among other things. So i decided to look up symptoms of ADHD and when i did i was like i have everyone of them. So i made the decision to go to a doctor and she diagnosed me with ADHD. She asked me questions and one was do i have an addictive personality and i said i dont think so and i knew fairly well that i did. All i could think about was getting adderall. So she prescribed me the adderall. I was good for a few months taking what i was supposed to but it wasnt long that i started taking more and more. Like i would run out a week before my refill then 2 weeks short of my refill. I have to add that my son was diagnosed with ADHD and i would ask his mom if i could get a could of his to get me through till i get my refill and would feel like the biggest piece of crap taking them but all i could think was i need them. But now i know i'm hooked and i REALLY want to QUIT. Life sucks now i feel like a zombie. I'm a person who would get up at 345 in the morning and go work out before work i was a work out junkie i'm not that person anymore. I want to be that again. I'm scared to tell my girlfriend my family what i have been doing. All i know is that i want to Stop. There was one time when i had run out and i was clean for 2 weeks i was working out i felt amazing and i told myself i'm done with it i'm not going to get my refill but as it came closer to when i could get my refill i kept telling myself you don't need it but i was week and i did it. I'm just on a bad spiral. There is nothing bad about my life. I life how my life is now with work and my family. So i;m not really sure why the hell i'm so addicted to this drug. If there is anyone with advise i would really love to hear it.