korosei53 Posted February 25, 2013 Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 “Today son your life is going to change dramatically….†This was the lies told to me by my psych as I was diagnosed with late onset “Adult ADDâ€. Who would have known the chaos that would come after I started the medication. I still remember the first day taking the medication and how everything seemed so much brighter with an overwhelming sense of motivation to get my life back in tack. This feeling of accomplishment and dedication made me strive for so much, but then I’ve come to realize it only helped me get though the day. After a few months I was a complete different person. I was always in a state of constant anxiety and all I needed to do to reduce that was to get that grade. My grades did improve, but at what cost……I really didn’t know till now Life has changed… I am a recent graduate with a B.S in bio…..I thought this was it and my life was going to kick off finally….Life has definitely changed…not! It wasn’t till a couple weeks after getting out of college that the constant boredom started to mess with my head. The addy plus the constant boredom = the “monster†inside me. I was my worst enemy and I saw myself deteriorating bit by bit every day. This was when I knew that I had to get off the meds and start a new life and break away from its grasp. Little did I know I was addicted …. I never thought that I had a problem with the meds, but I was just naïve and I should have known better. I’ve have friends who can’t seem to function without the meds and now that I got off the addy…I can see and feel the destruction that it has over one’s life. I am 23 days into this vicious cycle and it seems like I am losing all my marbles! For the 1st few weeks I was in a constant fog and my sleep cycle was off and on. There were days where I slept like a baby and days where I couldn’t sleep at all. No one understands my issue or seems to care. I have a gf with adhd and even see hasn’t experienced the difficulties that I’m going though now. I am excited to find such a community of people like you who have felt the despair I’m feeling now. This has given me hope that I am not alone in this battle. Keep up the fight -Drew 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted February 25, 2013 Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 Wow, thank you for sharing. That's gotta be hard having a gf with ADHD. You made it 23 days though! Whooo hooo!!! Glad to have you here. Keep posting and updating us with your status. I love all you newbies! You keep it so fresh for me. So again, thank you for sharing and KEEP MOVING FORWARD. Hugs! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
korosei53 Posted February 25, 2013 Author Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 Wow, thank you for sharing. That's gotta be hard having a gf with ADHD. You made it 23 days though! Whooo hooo!!! Glad to have you here. Keep posting and updating us with your status. I love all you newbies! You keep it so fresh for me. So again, thank you for sharing and KEEP MOVING FORWARD. Hugs! Yea it can be a handful at times with the gf and I ...Today is looking better! trying to get a grasp on getting off the meds and trying to keep a positive out look. Thanks for the support and ill make sure to update often to share my story with everyone and hopefully it can help others out too thanks, drew 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
korosei53 Posted March 6, 2013 Author Report Share Posted March 6, 2013 I was wondering do any of you have restlessleg syndrom associated with taking adderall? Ive been dealing with this issue since i started and it comes and goes now that im off the medication, but was prevalent all throughout my 2 years on adderall Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Motivation_Follows_Action Posted March 6, 2013 Report Share Posted March 6, 2013 Welcome to the forums, Korosei. Sounds like you've had a rough go of it and are surrounded also by adderallics which you've been strong not to cave to. Do you have access to adderall now? Have you cut off ties with your doc and asked your friends not to give any to you? Sounds like your resolve is strong now which is good but we all go through cravings at some point or other. You don't want to undo all the good work you've done! Your up/down/up/down is really familiar. When I first quit, after the first few weeks I would go a few days really irritable and depressed and then have one clear day every now and again. I would cling on to those good days as an insight in to what the future would be like, and now the reverse is true! I am still relatively early in my recovery (5 months) and from what I hear things only get better from here, so I'm looking forward to that. Final questions - how much were you on and when you say you were deteriorating day by day, what does that mean? I found being specific about what I hated about being on adderall was an important part of the recovery. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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