Cassie Posted October 22, 2013 Report Share Posted October 22, 2013 So, I got a new job and I start next week. It's a sales position. The company is good and the income potential is high. I'm very nervous because this is the first job I'll be starting in seven years without Adderall. My confidence is shaky because the last sales job I held was done entirely during the honeymoon phase of Adderall (though I keep reminding myself that I worked for four years in sales before that without it). My last job as an education administrator was good for quitting Adderall because I was a manager and it was slow paced, no real deadlines, etc. But, I believe I naturally perform better in a fast paced environment (like sales) where I am paid according to my performance, I don't have to manage anyone, and the goals/outcomes are very straightforward.. My last job involved managing a lot of people and I found it to be a unique combination of stress and intense boredom. I just feel so rusty work-wise, because I basically slacked off the past year and a half at my old cushy job and then three months of being unemployed. I know I'm stressing myself out for nothing, because I won't really know if I'm any good at this new job until I try it. I just hate that after nearly two years of being off it, Adderall is still fucking with me by making me doubt my ability to succeed without it. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
swervecity Posted October 22, 2013 Report Share Posted October 22, 2013 I know I'm stressing myself out for nothing, because I won't really know if I'm any good at this new job until I try it. I just hate that after nearly two years of being off it, Adderall is still fucking with me by making me doubt my ability to succeed without it. Lies from the pit of hell! Understandable, but still lies!! Forget about you. "I" is always our problem. Get yourself out of the way, and just let the Master run this. Look forward to hearing how well you do. Proud of you, Cassie. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jon Posted October 22, 2013 Report Share Posted October 22, 2013 Congratulations Cassie! You will be off and flying on your own wings, not Adderall's wings. It's not surprising that the drug still has a voice, but that's addiction. I'm sure you will do spectacularly! I picture you selling medical devices for some reason. They tend to be complex and expensive. You can use your gift for taking complex mechanisms and converting the complexity to practical talk. Your customers will love you for being you. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cassie Posted October 22, 2013 Author Report Share Posted October 22, 2013 Congratulations Cassie! You will be off and flying on your own wings, not Adderall's wings. It's not surprising that the drug still has a voice, but that's addiction. I'm sure you will do spectacularly! I picture you selling medical devices for some reason. They tend to be complex and expensive. You can use your gift for taking complex mechanisms and converting the complexity to practical talk. Your customers will love you for being you. Thanks Jon. Haha, no, not medical devices. The last thing I want to do is contribute to the profits of the medical/pharmaceutical industrial complex and talk to doctors, lol. When I was hired for this job, the interviewer said he liked that I had a very easygoing personality and calm, collected way of speaking. That type of demeanor works really well for sales, and that's why I was good at it in the past. I just have to remind myself that by the end of my Adderall use, I was uptight, bitchy and angry all the time, and uncoordinated both physically and verbally. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted October 23, 2013 Report Share Posted October 23, 2013 Awesome! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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