Popular Post lunax Posted October 25, 2013 Popular Post Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 Last night I took a big step in my recovery and decided to tell my mother about my adderall addiction. We have always been very close but our relationship has been really rocky during the last few years, mainly due to my erratic and out of control behavior on adderall. Just thinking about this makes me feel really sad and guilty. Much to my surprise my mom was well aware of the fact that I was "on something" (there's no fooling a good mother). I appreciate the fact that she nor anyone else confronted me about it but part of me wishes someone had. Especial during the times where my addiction was most obvious, i.e losing 30lbs, drinking every night, never sleeping, etc. In any case I feel relieved because I have now told the three most important people in my life that I have been struggling with this drug and each of them has been incredibly gentle and supportive about the whole thing. Trying to quit alone is not impossible but I know that having them, as well as all of you to keep me going will be incredibly helpful to me in this process. Anyway, I just wanted to share this and encourage anyone who hasn't told someone about their addiction to do so soon because keeping this a secret is incredibly painful and makes it so much much more likely to relapse. LX 11 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Krax Posted October 25, 2013 Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 Good job, I did the something the other day with one of my kids, and I think it's a real step forward. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted October 25, 2013 Author Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 Wow that's big, how old is your kid if you don't mind me asking? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Krax Posted October 25, 2013 Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 19 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kori Posted October 25, 2013 Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 How did the drinking work out? Was it able to provide at least some type of temporary relief? I am a chronic insomniac however I am very skeptical to mix the  two...plus it makes me dehydrated, and we already know on adderall im ALREADY super mal nourished and dehydrated. Can't wait until I am stable enough to exercise again.  PS I am so proud of you! *hugs* lol 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted October 25, 2013 Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 This is a big step. I know when I started telling friends and family it was a big step forward. My parents were really supportive when I was deeply depressed. Â Getting clean has brought me closer to my family. Â 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted October 25, 2013 Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 That took a lot ofstrength and courage. Kudos to you girlie! Now you have a full on support system. Its only up from here. :-) 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted October 25, 2013 Author Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 19 I really commend you for that. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted October 25, 2013 Author Report Share Posted October 25, 2013 How did the drinking work out? Was it able to provide at least some type of temporary relief? I am a chronic insomniac however I am very skeptical to mix the two...plus it makes me dehydrated, and we already know on adderall im ALREADY super mal nourished and dehydrated. Can't wait until I am stable enough to exercise again. PS I am so proud of you! *hugs* lol I wouldnt refer to it as relief in any way. I actually think I was subconsciously trying to poison myself. Getting drunk and binging on adderall ALWAYS ended nasty. It nearly destroyed my relationship. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cassie Posted October 26, 2013 Report Share Posted October 26, 2013 I wouldnt refer to it as relief in any way. I actually think I was subconsciously trying to poison myself. Getting drunk and binging on adderall ALWAYS ended nasty. It nearly destroyed my relationship. Me too. When I would take Vyvanse and start drinking, I got really mean, aggressive and argumentative. I would always get into a fight with whoever I was with, usually my husband. I could drink a lot on amphetamines because I'd be drunk but alert and focused.  Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted October 26, 2013 Report Share Posted October 26, 2013 Lunax,  Way to go girlie! I am so proud of you!!! This is A GIANT step forward. All down hill from here on out! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted October 26, 2013 Author Report Share Posted October 26, 2013 Lunax, Way to go girlie! I am so proud of you!!! This is A GIANT step forward. All down hill from here on out! Thanks Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
llwilson Posted October 28, 2013 Report Share Posted October 28, 2013 Again, so proud of you lunax!! Sending big hugs from Georgia! It takes balls to do what you did. So proud Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted October 28, 2013 Report Share Posted October 28, 2013 Awesome, your strength continues to impress! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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