The +2 Year Mark No

[sobrietysucks]

I've been browsing through the forums and noticed those that have been adderall free for 2,3 and even 4 yrs still experience lack of motivation.

 

That is because they go back to being their pre adderall self. I remember I had very little motivation and was depressed before I took the pill. You will never truly be magically 'motivated' as your adderall self.

This is where people make the mistake of believing they are still in withdrawal. They are back to base self and life will have ups and down.

They become more active and productive few months later because they were forced to function without adderall. Those tasks eventually become a habit. This is a result of training the brain, not relief from withdrawal symptom.

I'm 1 month free (used for 3 yrs) and I already feel like to base line. The way I used to be before adderall. I honestly don't think I will have much improvement in the future. 

[bluemoon]

Sorry but I have to disagree. 14 months clean here and I definitely am not back to my normal "baseline" yet. Yes, I did struggle with depression before Adderall... but I refuse to believe that this is just who I'm going to be forever.

[Zerokewl]

close to 4 years later I am very aware of depression, what causes it and how to deal with depressive episodes. When I look back on my usage of Adderall I really did use it to cope with depression. I really did feel like it solved my depression issues early in my usage.   When I quit I experienced a prolonged and extreme depression.  I eventually emerged. Ultimately some tasks like taxes, work email  are just painful without adderall... you just learn to plow through them.   This takes time and practice.  Motivation is a question of passion for me.  I need to love a task to be motivated.  Not every task is loveable tho so you just get through it. 

[sobrietysucks]

8 hours ago, Zerokewl said:

close to 4 years later I am very aware of depression, what causes it and how to deal with depressive episodes. When I look back on my usage of Adderall I really did use it to cope with depression. I really did feel like it solved my depression issues early in my usage.   When I quit I experienced a prolonged and extreme depression.  I eventually emerged. Ultimately some tasks like taxes, work email  are just painful without adderall... you just learn to plow through them.   This takes time and practice.  Motivation is a question of passion for me.  I need to love a task to be motivated.  Not every task is loveable tho so you just get through it. 

The depression you feel after aderall is your brain in shock as it returns to reality. You go from 100mph to 30 mph. The biggest reason why we feel depression is because when you have experienced the amazing things a pill can do , it is very difficult to go back to normalcy. To us normal isn't even normal, its depressing.

 

I still can't believe that some of people at the 2,3, 4+ year mark are struggling. Something tells me this will be a lifelong struggle. 

[Tom23Jones]

I took adderall for 10 years and binged daily for the last 2-3 years and I can tell you that my life is 100x better without adderall.  You call it a magical pill but that shit lost its magic for me way before I stopped taking it.

I'm at 9 months clean and I've got way better/healthier habits than I ever had while using adderall.  I've got a better and more honest relationship with my wife, my family and my friends.

Sure, I struggle at my job and have a hard time staying on task for 8 hours but I now realize its because I hate this fuckin job lol.  I don't want to take a pill that tricks me into thinking what I do for a living is fun.  I'm more eager to find a means of income that I'm naturally drawn to.