PASSED MY CLASSES!

[Cheeri0]

Hey guys - just wanted to share some good news. I've spent the last 4 years of my life failing out of and re-enrolling in college. I've had sporadic employment along the way, but I've been a (bad) student above all else. Addiction chewed me up and spit me back out more times than I can count, always thwarting the plans I had for myself.

I always started the semester with the best of intentions ("things will be better this time") and then immediately fell into destructive, addictive habits. At the first sign of academic or personal stress I would reach for my pills, and by the end of that week I would be so cracked out I couldn't see or think straight. It's been embarrassing to constantly feel like a failure. To be 24 years old, in a class surrounded by teenagers, and not be able to measure up - year after year sitting through a graduation where I watch friends accomplish something I couldn't. It's honestly been the toughest few years of my life. Being Van Wilder in a shitty college town, going on year 7 of trying to get a degree. Feeling like nothing.

But thanks to this forum and Narcotics Anonymous, for the first time in years I was able to successfully accumulate credits. I didn't get straight As, but a 2.5 GPA is better than flunking. After all of those years praying that adderall would turn me into a success, I finally realized that short cuts don't work. It was time to get honest and face the music. Accepting my "shortcomings" for what they are and embracing my own humanity has been the hardest thing I've ever done. One more year and I'll finally have my degree, and hopefully with this semester under my belt things will only get easier. I get 9 months clean tomorrow. I'm just pretty mind-blown, y'all. I can't thank you enough.