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I need a way to decide what's best . There are cons, but no where near some of the problems I've seen others describe. I think I'm self rationalizing but I need to decide once and for all.

Maybe I can try setting limits but there's no such thing as a weekend user

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I relapsed. Been using adderall once or twice a week for the past 6 weeks.

And here I am in the same spot. About a week clean of the stuff, arguing back and forth in my head if I should continue to use occasionally because I haven't had any real problems. It isn't destroying my life. And I like the stuff. It's just

Consuming my thoughts debating back and forth. I'm sick of living this way

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Already twice I've turned it down...once by a person I just met before going to a club and another was a friend. I told both no and explained my new choice to my friend...was and still is extremely tempting..I'm hungover and I really wanted to say yes but didn't. So that's good. The lingering craving is annoying though.

Trying to focus on some of my worst nights/experiences with adderall as motivation

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I can rate in many ways to your experience, at this moment I feel like I have "beat the addiction." And that now it might be safe to try occasional use. That is definitely romanticizing. My only difference is that I cannot just cut it off. I have to find a way to resist on my own. Because honestly, I just know way too many people and friends over the years who I could ask. If I want to find I will find a way...have to just keep telling myself that one will lead to many . Even if it's down the road

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Thank you. I have done that but it's hard to completely cut off source because I live in a college area. What do you all tell yourselves to stop the rationalization that "just once in awhile" is ok?

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The aggressive behavior when drinking on adderall is the worst effect...

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Hello, this is my first post but I have visited occasionally and read over the past few years

Just as a background :

I've been out of college for about a year

I started using adderall from friends to study in my second year and it evolved to recreational binge usage . Upwards of 150mg on some days

I have quit for months at a time over the past few years but always end up going back to some level of occasional use

Sometimes only once a month, sometimes a binge every weekend for a month

Never daily

Adderall has caused me many problems and been my only focus for various short periods, it has lead to stress in relationships, negatively effected work performance , and lead to aggressive behavior.

I have been totally clean for 2 months , but a majority of that time adderall was unavailable.

It is now available if I ask a friend

I am so afraid that I will soon be able to rationalize to myself that taking one to get something done (or much more likely recreationally) will be fine. I know that it will lead to more.

I just love how I feel now and I think, well imagine how great you would feel if you took one. I know that how well things are going for me is a result

Of my abstinence .

WHAT METHODS DO YOU RECCOMEND TO STAY AWARE AND VIGILANT?

It is so hard to remember the bad times to motivate myself .I want this time to be for good. I need long lasting techniques

Thank you so much. I have done much research over the years but maybe this forum can help me stay on my current track