[Which was more awful?]

What a great question! For me, bad days on adderall were definitely the worst. I remember feeling like I couldn't breath, my heart actually had shooting pains, I was afraid to go outside but sometimes felt like I should just in case I had an emergency and at least people would be around to help me. What kind of craziness is that? Also- I swear I was becoming dumber.

Bad days in recovery include lack interest, apathy, and eating more than I'd like- but I have to take ownership of those feelings and behaviors. Living an authentic life today is more important and feels better to me, even though it sometimes isn't easy. 

[Almost 9 months off adderall and still fat, lazy and depressed AF]

Now is the time to start creating the life you want to live! You quit for a reason, don't forget it. 

[Just Flushed Pills!!!! QUITTING]

Good job! I also had to flush my precious pills in order to quit. No matter how bad it was the day before- if it was in my house the next morning I was going to take it. It felt like I couldn't live with it or without it. Adderall steals your soul and self esteem. It took a little time but now I never feel anxious or bad about my choices or how I act because I know I'm being my authentic self. Good luck, the gifts are going to start pouring in since you've quit so look out for them!