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Hey!
Thank you all for your encouraging words! Its surreal being off of it. I remember those days when I would skip a dose and end up staying in bed all day feeling as if I was dying... Now I can wake up, GET UP, and function without a dose and without feeling like death. Even though I am sleeping a ridiculous amount, I feel "Functional"... Though im not anywhere near the mental clarity I had before Adderall... Right now I feel that I can at-least make it throughout my day-to-day...
Dear sweet Jesus my emotional mood swings are out of hand, but at least I feel something besides that of a stressed out project manager....
As for the dreaming, most of them have been nightmares, but I think part of it is the fact that I am new to dreams and things are still mellowing out...
I am excited...
I am going to try to get out and walk though... I think that will really start to help with restoring my dopamine levels.
The one thing I can't get over is that last time I quit, I felt like I was dying for months... I think the difference partly my mindset, but also having roommates... I became socially isolated after quitting last time, but I am starting to even out...
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Hey everyone!
Thank you for sharing all of your success stories! I think my main reservation has been about the time until I can somewhat function in society... And this is really only because of the initial crash, and how it will effect me at my job...
But I think this is a perfect time, as I just finished finals for school and will have time to recover between now and then...
So... I took my last dose Sunday morning at 10:30 AM... I told my roommate what was happening and I think she will be a great support through this... Telling one person made me feel 100% better!
I have 5 days to go through every painful withdrawal symptom while I relinquish the chemical dependency... I am on day 3 and I'm fluctuating between sleep and actually walking around...
I work overnights on weekends, and I just hope to not get fired...
I will have a total of 28 days for my initial recovery, 6 of which I will be working and 1 day of school..
This is my plan for the first 4 weeks:
Week 1 Goal:
Get up and Mark 1 day off of my 30 day calendar...
Try to shower...
Week 2 Goal:
Try to go outside for 1 hour each day even if it just means sitting or laying in the grass...
Mark my calendar...
Walk if possible...
Shower if possible...
Week 3 Goal:
Walk 3 times during the week.
Try wash do laundry which is going to be a all-day event...
Week 4 Goal:
Walk 3 times a week, but go outside each day for at least a hour...
Try to hang out with friends/socialize...
Try to exert yourself once each day... Don't worry if you succeed... Just try...
Supplements:
5-HTP |
1-Ultra Pack Daily Vitamin | Spring Valley
- Vitamin A (5000 I.U.; 100% As Beta Carotene; 100% Daily Value),
- Vitamin C (1200 Mg; 2000% Daily Value),
- Vitamin D (200 I.U.; 50% Daily Value),
- Vitamin E (300 I.U.; 1000% Daily Value),
- Thiamin (Vitamin B1; 25 Mg; 16667% Daily Value),
- Riboflavin (Vitamin B2; 25 Mg; 1471% Daily Value)
- Niacin (25 Mg; 125% Daily Value)
- Vitamin B6 (25 Mg; 1250% Daily Value),
- Folic Acid (400 Mcg; 100% Daily Value),
- Vitamin B12 (25 Mcg; 417% Daily Value),
- Biotin (25 Mcg; 8% Daily Value),
- Pantothenic Acid (25 Mg; 250% Daily Value)
- Calcium (130 Mg; 13% Daily Value)
- Iron (4.1 Mg; 23% Daily Value)
- Phosphorus (100 Mg; 10% Daily Value)
- Iodine (112.5 Mcg; 75% Daily Value)
- Magnesium (50 Mg; 13% Daily Value)
- Zinc (12.5 Mg; 83% Daily Value)
- Selenium (12.5 Mcg; 18% Daily Value),
- Copper (1.5 Mg; 75% Daily Value),
- Manganese (1.5 Mg; 75% Daily Value),
- Chromium (625 Mcg; 521% Daily Value),
- Molybdenium (7.5 Mcg; 10% Daily Value),
L-Tyrosine | 500mg | 1x Day
Fish Oil | 1200 MG | 1x Day
Probiotic | 1x Day
Well I was hoping to post this earlier but it took until day three until I actually felt like I can focus on something for more then 15 seconds...
Day 1: I slept for 90% of the day... Not much to report...
Day 2: I slept for about half the day... But I woke up, took a shower... Washed a load of clothes... And then crashed... Later that night I went to the store... It was awfully painful, but I needed grocerys...
Day 3: I slept most of the day... But I got up, made lunch... And cleaned the dishes...
I actually had dreams when I slept... I can't remember the last time I had one while on Adderall... It's weird... The last time I quit I was on my ass for a month... I think having roommates has helped tremendously... In addition to taking the supplements has done miracles... I also think not having any left to fall back on helps...
It's weird being able to sit down and relax... I thought I could before... But my mind was never still...
Well that's all I can right for now I hope to check in soon!
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I am currently on Adderall, but I want to quit. I am looking for a suppourt group or individuals going through the same thing nearby. Does anyone live in/around this area? Does anyone know of suppourt networks around me?
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Hey!
Your post hit home with me. I started taking adderall when I was 22 and I am 25 now. I am currently on Adderall but I am hoping to quit. I noticed several things I relate to in your post. The main one is social isolation. I have put up so many walls. I see friends every month or so, and even now I am totally different. Instead of being rambunctious and loud, I am quiet and reserved. That's certainly not who I was three years ago.
What was the key thing that helped you regain your motivation. I tried to quit a year ago, and did so, but even after 4 months I was still tired.
What advice would you give to someone like me, who is still in school full-time and working?
Also, I agree with what you said about Adderall teaching you how to focus. I noticed that when I quit I had the urge to clean!
This might be a weird question, but I know when I quit Adderall I'm going to be dead for a few days during the initial stage. Is there anything I can do to prep? And is there anything I should do now, utilizing the Adderall, that will help me in quitting?
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Hey!
My name is Scott and I am 25 years old.
My current Adderall use is 60mg. I take Adderall XR and Adderall Tablets.
My reason for writing this is to seek out advice from all of you. I am going to be completely open about everything. I can guarantee you this is gonna be a long post since I just took my adderall, which I apologize about in advance. I am looking for suppourt, advice, assurance, and really anything you have to help me in quitting adderall.
Before Adderall:
Growing up I have always been an unusually bright person. My friends would describe me a shy and outgoing. I prided myself that my friends saw me as dependable. I had dreams and ambitions. I think that was my dominant trait actually. I just knew where I was going, and no one was going to stop me! In school I wasn't the "top" student, not even close. My hobbies were hanging out with friends, cooking, couponing, etc. If something caught my interest, it was easy to have the motivation I needed to get involved. I was normal, if not usually chipper. And waking up in the mornings was easy as can be.
Starting Adderall:
I started taking adderall in May of 2012, after my little brother was diagnosed with ADHD. The doctor told my mom it was usually hereditary and so I looked into it. It explained me perfectly. I was forgetful, unorganized, and somewhat lazy. I think a lot of the issues I had were other people's opinions of me versus my opinion of myself. To my mom and family I was lazy and unmotivated. But looking back I was a typical teenager/early-adult. Either way I decided I wanted to get tested. After being tested the doctor said I was a classic of ADHD Type-2. Type-2 simply means that I stare off into space and daydream versus setting fire to a classroom. Once diagnosed I went to my doctor and we met. He told me all about ADHD and what I could be. He showed me photos of handwriting before/after and grades that improved with treatment. Treatment being Adderall. When I first started taking adderall, it messed with my "senses". I felt like I was in an out-of-body experience. I quit it for a few days. I called my doctor after I returned to normal and told them about my experience. He told me that I just need to "stick-with-it" as my body adjusted to the new drug. I did.
Taking Adderall:
Starting out I was still myself. I was a socialite and still stayed actively engaged with my friends. My magical moment came when I worked myself up to 20mg. I had a almost high-urgent need to do something. I always wanted to be a cleaner, and now I was. I didn't enjoy cleaning, it became something I "loved" to do. I had ridiculous amounts of focus, and I could focus on something and actually accomplish it. I think I started misusing Adderall when I got a job with the county and had to wake up at 5:00AM. I took it to STAY awake. I realized soon that the dose didn't always have the same effect, so I started increasing my use. The next year I got a job promotion where I had to stay alert. Therefore I used Adderall to stay mentally sharp and awake. I worked long days and would take 40mg in the morning at 5:00AM and 1:00 PM. I really didn't sleep much anymore either. I also stopped hanging out around friends and became more of a homebody. I then moved out of my moms house and into my own place. I lived alone and I think that added to the social anxiety. As the year went on I started to need Adderall in order to wake up, versus simply stay awake. It eventually got to a point where I would spend all day in bed, because I didn't even have the energy to get up and take Adderall. It was somewhere around this time that I started to hate going out in public. I just lost interest and would rather stay locked up then go out into the world. I rarely saw my friends. In fact I saw my landlord more then I ever saw any friends. I would go see them and I really enjoyed it. Even though now I was quiet and reserved versus Loud and obnoxious. I don't know what it was. I didn't feel uncomfortable I just didn't have that same spark I once did. It wasn't long after this when I realized I needed to quit Adderall. I decided to quit and went cold-turkey. I SLEPT for a good month. Afterwards, I would go to work and come home and sleep. Then after three months from summer break, I went back to work. I no longer enjoyed waking up like I used to. I was always late to work. All was fine until I started getting the "head-bobs" while driving. I wasn't as clean anymore and my entire work performance suffered. My landlord was upset at how filthy my apartment was. Eventually I talked myself into taking Adderall again. And everything took off except I was at 40mg versus 60mg. But after a month I went back to 60mg. I then moved in with roommates. We get along great and I really enjoy them. But I think after six months they are starting to not be a fan of me anymore. I spend time with them, but I mainly stay locked up in my room. Plus my room is a mess. I cleaned so much that I am sick of it, and the 60mg doesn't seem to be doing much. I also started back college, which I had been forced to quit due to finical aid issues before I started taking Adderall. I can barley make it out the bed to go to class. I have to take Adderall or have something extremely important to do in order to get up and go to class. Even then my sleep schedule is so messed up because I work overnights on the weekend. When I am not working I sleep.
Overall:
Since taking Adderall I have become secluded from society. I used to love waking up in the mornings but now I can barely get up to take my Adderall to get motivated for the day. And once I am up I only have 4-8 hours that my Adderall works, and then I have to re-up or crash or burn. My room is a mess, nothing is organized, I see my friends once every few months, and I just feel like I'm drowning. I take Adderall everyday.
Fear of quitting:
Last time I quit Adderall I went through an awful month of just sleeping. And even after that was over, I had little to no motivation. I could wake up, but really all I wanted to do was sleep. I loved to go see friends but honestly I think we just drifted apart. They don't ever care to hang. Plus, I live with roommates and I need to clean, to maintain peace. In addition I'm in college and I can't afford to go through this as my grades may slip. I don't know if I am also depressed or if my Adderall addiction is the culprit.
Questions:
I have taken Adderall for 3 — almost 4 years now. I used to take 40mg, but now I am up to 60mg. How long would it take to get over the initial part?
I have looked at the "alternatives" forum but I don't know what anything is. Can one of you explain the basics and common alternatives?
When quitting Adderall what can I expect with my job since I live on my own and have to pay bills?
Do you feel that friends were a vital role in your success with quitting Adderall? What suppourt networks are in GA?
What do you personally recommend after reading my story?
Did anything I say stand out? I don't know much about this addiction, but I know it's a biotch.
Is there anything I can do to prep for coming off Adderall?
Any advice you have?
Lastly, do you ever feel like you are "you" again?
Thank you for everything, and I apologize about the long post in advance.
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Im hanging in there.. I am functional, but lacking the mental clairty I once had... I know it will take time and IM excited.. The supplements are greatly helping...