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I was on Adderall for 10 years but a professional therapist directed me here and I thought it was the answer to all of my problems.  The thing is that things got worse.  I figured they would since I was on it for so long.  I gained weight but I also became more angry.  Maybe it had to do with the fact that I was less focused or the weight gain or both.  Anyway, that was in October of 2016.  I made 4 months and realized after spending an entire Saturday in bed and needing to get up to take my daughter somewhere that I was in no condition to be human that day (by the way, every day became harder and worse).  I always had the Adderall in the house because I knew I wouldn't take it but I had no choice that Sunday morning....I took it and had a great day and have been unable to stop since.  I told love ones of my plan but I just made their lives miserable.  I just wish I never started them to begin with.  I know I do not have the strength to endure another 4 months of hell like that again.  I guess I am wondering what you all did to kick it? 

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Hi Frank,

Thanks for the reply. I cannot locate these videos you reference. Is PAWS an acronym? Thanks again!

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Hi there,

I've been off for 27 days. I guess I'm okay. Just very lethargic. Everyday is a struggle from a fatigue standpoint.

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Thank you, Doge...although it seems depressing that this could continue past a year.  

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Hello,

 

I have been taking Adderall (until 10.14.16) for 10 years...legally as an rx for ADD.  I had no idea the problems I have been dealing with the past number of years were due to the Adderall....figuring if a doctor prescribed it then it must be good for me.  I have since done research (thanks for to this site) and realized I need to get off of the Adderall.  The logic and science all makes sense; however, the day-to-day struggle is real.  The Adderall was like a pacifier for me (my security blanket).  Now it is a struggle to do basic tasks.  I am willing to put in the work because I hope for a better life for myself but these days are really a struggle....I know that pill can get me through a tough meeting or conference call.  I have been struggling with my energy level and have been drinking Red Bull and 5 Hour Energy...yes, I know those are not good either but it gives me a little boost.  

 

Here is my question...how long can I expect to feel this way?  I read other stories on here and it seems like most people have been on Adderall for less than 5 years and they still struggle a year after the fact.  I worry that my age (42) and being on it for 10 years will make my recovery unbearable.  Any thoughts or words of wisdom?  I was prescribed 20mg 3x a day.  The most I would usually take in a day would be 80 and sometimes (usually weekends) I would make due with 20/40.  

 

Thank you to all as it is quite helpful reading everyone's stories on here!