bellavore

Hi all, I'm having a rough day and I just need reassurance and encouragement that it's gonna be okay, I guess. This is my fifth day sober. I wasn't really planning to quit this week, but long story short I got the week off work and quit cold turkey starting Wednesday. I slept through the first two days, but the insomnia kicked in for the last two nights so I haven't been able to stick to any semblance of a schedule. And last night, in addition to the insomnia came intense paranoia and intrusive negative/terrifying thoughts. Yesterday my mood and energy (though not focus) were surprisingly positive, but today I am irritable and trying really hard not to lash out at my undeserving S/O. I cried because the pitcher of tea I brewed two days ago was emptier than I expected it to be earlier today. I'm so scared I won't be able to put up the facade I need for work tomorrow. What if I can't sleep again tonight? I'm not sure if I'll be able to get any work done tomorrow or not, but my job does allow me to do more physical work if I need to so hopefully that's an advantage. And there's a whole new level of virus-related stress to deal with; work means wearing a mask at all times and a high level of exposure risk. As if trying to manage drug withdrawals weren't stressful enough! I know this has to be normal but I just don't know how I'll be able to cope. (I'm crying just writing this out.) Please help.