Regrettingtheyears

I need advice. Let me first start off with some background information. I am almost 2 months off adderall (30 mg ER) after being on it for 8 years (since I was 20). No, I don't really have ADHD (I exaggerated majorly to my psychiatrist just to get it). I have been studying the LSAT (a standardized test to enter law school) for coming up 3 years now. I have been putting off applying to law schools the last 2 years because I was unsatisfied with my score, but I made a vow that this year, no matter my score, I will apply. I plan on taking the LSAT in June/July. Also, I should mention, studying for the LSAT has become my full time job, meaning I don't work a job; all I do everyday (except weekends) is study. Since I have quit adderall, I have been a zombie, eating and sleeping, and no studying at all. The LSAT is coming up rapidly and I am feeling the time pressure to resume studies, but I am honestly scared to even try because I don't want to do ANYTHING. I barely even want to watch tv. I told my psychiatrist that I quit cold turkey without consulting with him first and he said that was a bad idea to do that and this isn't the "best" time to quit. I agree with him in that I already have been thinking about the things he said to me... that now is crunch time to try to get the best LSAT score I can; that I have been studying for YEARS on this test and that quitting adderall so close to test time is crippling me. After speaking with him, I made up my mind to resume adderall and he refilled my scripts (different doses; 10 mg ER and 20 mg ER to eventually go back to 30 mg ER). However, I'm still hesitant because when do I truly quit for good? After my test?? But what about law school? It is a very intensive make it or break it 3 years of schooling. Sigh. Someone give me some advice.