Freya

It really sucks but I began tapering last week this forum helps a lot. This is the longest I’ve kept with it, today I’m on the lowest mg I’ve been in 5 years and I’m at work right now which is rough I really would like to go home. I’m doing it without a doctor tho I don’t want to go my doctor and regret it and not be able to turn back. Last September my uncle did that with Xanax and when he wanted to back out he couldn’t and he was going through it mentally more than physically and he ended up killing himself. I don’t want to feel stuck like he did and I know if I go to a doctor I’ll feel like that. I know the withdrawal is not anything like benzos or opiates but the mental part is enough for me. Right now I feel so sad but more angry that I allowed myself to get this bad… hoping I don’t give up. thank you for writing

Ive tried weaning myself off but it isn’t gonna work and as much as I want to stop there’s the fear of being without it and the regret that comes after making that decision.. admitting that I need help and having my dose decreased to eventually nothing at all. Just been incredibly stressed out I can’t keep going on like this the dose I take is not good and I feel my health declining and who knows just need some advice. Thanks