[Empathy]

Thanks so much for your responses. I'm so thankful to hear that it's going to come back. I'd been cutting back slowly, and I've had zero pills for about a week. Suddenly, today I felt good-for many reasons, which I'm posting here mostly so I can go back and reference the list when I feel tempted.

1. I felt NO paranoia today. Why would I ever take something that is GUARANTEED to make me feel paranoid and crazy?

2. Food smelled and tasted pleasurable.

3. I was patient...and fully present...with my family.

4. I truly enjoyed the sun and the breeze.

5. I drove through my neighborhood and remembered a long lost feeling that I'd had ten years ago when I knew I wanted to live here forever. I'd forgotten how much I loved it until this morning. It stood out, because obviously I drive through it every day, and the scenery hasn't changed, just my perception of it because of these stupid pills! It makes me wonder what else I've been missing!

7. I felt a genuine sense of comfort, that had been long gone.

8. Today I didn't once wonder what it's all for.

9. Nothing I did today made me hate myself.

I sensed something shifting when two days ago I cried watching a Hannah Montana movie with my daughter! Ha! I've been taking N-Acetyl Cysteine, Curcumin, and a tiny amount of Sam-E this time. I have no idea if it's making a difference, but all I'm hoping for is that I still feel this way tomorrow. I'm definitely feeling mentally sluggish, but I'm fairly certain I'd prefer all of my days to be more like today than what they've been for the past four years.

Thanks again!

P

I started taking Sam-E last Friday and I started noticing positive effects right away. My depression has decreased quite a bit and has helped with the Adderall withdrawal, which I ceased the Friday before last. How long have y

ou been taking Sam-E?

[Greenville, SC]

I live in York, right outside of Rock Hill and Charlotte.

[Adderall-Addict]

Thank you!!

I actually wanted to thank EVERYONE on these boards. 2 months ago--I was just getting my night started. It is kind of late now--had a run earlier and I'm completely HYPER(all natural I promise)--and I love it. Anyhow..2 months ago there is no way in HELL I'd be typing anything or feel motivated to do anything productive without Adderall. I am actually so freaking tired of that word--because to me--it represents 6 years of my life...of destruction. LUCKILY--With the help of my family, friends and this site--I actually feel things again..and I love it. There are days where I just blare Semi-Charmed Life by Third Eye Blind(sounds lame but..) and I feel so related---because I do want something else..to get me through...and IT IS NOT ADDERALL.

Adderall was a fake crutch. Focus and motivation--with some sort of effort--can be achieved. It's never my place to judge anyone on Adderall--but it does sadden me--and scare the hell out of me what our generation is going through--legal meth epidemic.

The thought of Adderall makes me sick. I feel sick because I remember that tingly feeling after I took it--the aspect that got me hooked is now the aspect that makes me stay away. I'm never going back to Adderall. A lot of people have told me that I was more focused, quieter, serious ON ADDERALL---but that isn't who I am. A lot of those people also do not know me and also no not know the side effects of:paranoia, psychosis, malnutrition, sleep deprivation, dry mouth, cracked lips, black eyes, non stop smoking, careless choice making and FAKE SENSE OF BEING are not worth a few hours of my focus.

When I first read some of the stories here about how good people were feeling after the few days without-I was thinking there was NO WAY. But there is a way--This life is so beautiful--I'm choosing to continue on with working at focus and keep my ADHD ass in line--HAHA.

Thank you everyone here. Thank you for listening and THANK YOU FOR BEING A PART OF THE MOST POSITIVE CHANGE IN MY LIFE. <3 I am always here for anyone who needs a friend or support.

Love, Katie

It's ironic that you can relate to Semi-Charmed life. You know that song is about Meth right? And on Adderall we are all just a few short steps above the life of a Meth addict.

[Adderall-Addict]

I just posted your dad's quote on my facebook page. It really hit me hard. I altered the words a little to apply to drugs in general, I certainly didn't want to specifically mention adderall because I'm not even precribed it but I've taken it almost daily for the past year. No more though, I'm done. Finished my semester on Thursday, got rid of the rest of my supply and I'm ready to move on with my life. On my third day without it and im feeling worse but better at the same time. I look forward to the progress i'm going to make this month. I'm already feeling more social and that is one of my main reasons for quitting along with the on again off again depression. I feel I could become a completely different and much better and happier person by the end of the summer without it. I'm ready to be the person I was meant to be.