subtractadderall

This is my first post on this forum. I have been taking 15-30mg of Adderall pretty much every day for the past 4 years. Today marks my 7th day without the drug, as I've decided to quit cold turkey. I feel like I've completely lost myself. On the drug, I feel crushing anxiety (both social and general), as well as a generally negative outlook on everything. I've felt as if I couldn't control my thoughts or even my facial expressions. I made the decision to quit because I wanted to be myself again, even if that meant sacrificing my productivity. Has anyone else felt the soul-crushing effects of which I speak? As of now, I'm so tired I can barely get out of bed in the mornings, but I feel happier and more hopeful.