Wow. I feel like my mind is being read. I wish I could put in words how much those posts helped me understand. I went from thinking it made my life better for the past two years to a complete 180. The stages of addiction almost made me cry, it literally described the past 2 years of my life, because I got addicted so fast, I am easily at stage 6. 20mg a day was an understatement, I just was embarrassed to say how much. I feel so much better that there is a solution to all the symptoms I have by quitting. I know what you mean when you say "zombie land of Adderall" and I don't want to go there because I've been there during high doses and god, if that was permanent it would be hell. You guys seriously saved me from going down a terrible road, I can't thank you enough, I'm going to quit, hopefully I find someone for support, my family and friends don't understand because it's a prescription and think I'm just being dramatic, but seriously know that you made a huge difference in someone's life today. I've looked for help on "Webmd" and all that bs trying to find advice, but this website it's incredible. The owner and other posters have the best choice of words, honesty and advice. I'm so relieved, thank you.