HulkieD

So, my name is Matt. I'm almost 30, and I've been on ADD meds, on and off, since first grade. Recently, I was given Concerta. Under Concerta, years passed by with me not really doing anything to change my life. I let relationships flounder, I became self-obsessed, and I was genuinely becoming a not-very-nice person. I took more, got even more awful, and finally decided I needed to get off this thing. I was switched to Adderall. I've been on Adderall for about six months now. I am going to admit that switching from Concerta to Adderall improved me immensely - I've never been able to concentrate on the level that I've been able to with this drug. Moreover, it gave me confidence, a work ethic, and a purpose. People noticed - which gave me a permanent promotion to night manager at my grocery store job (I've held the position on and off). But I've had to slowly take more and more of it. Part of this is a hard schedule I'm on, which has me working nights at least five times a week (until 11pm - and it's a night manager job so I can't just sleepwalk through it), and taking care of my COPD-impared mom and elderly father the rest of the day. It's trying, but Adderall was helping - at least for awhile. Lately, I've been taking 60mg doses each day (I'm prescribed for 40mg), and while I have tremendous periods of creativity, I'm getting more irritable, a little more anti-social, and a little more surly. Plus, I'm up until 2am invariably - which means I crash for most of the morning. Today, I found out that I'm going to be without adderall for the next three days. I'm scared to death about this, given I took on a website project right beforehand that has an urgent turnaround - and a massive boost to my employment chances in website work, which I've grown to love. I had no idea what to do. Then I googled "going three days without adderall". I found this site. I found the "Your Challenge" page. I was blown away. I saw the risks of staying on this drug... and I made a private promise to get off it as soon as possible. I don't know if now is the time. I am still daunted by having three days off ADD meds cold turkey when I have a ton to do for this big, potentially career-changing project and I have to keep going at 110% at my job. I seriously don't know what I'm going to do from this point on. But you've given me hope that an even better life is possible. I know it's a step I hve to take, but I don't know if now is the time...