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" THE 30 DAY CHALLENGE RELOADED" WELCOME ALL!

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This page is for anyone just starting out, or attempting to get that 1st 30 days of clean time, free from adderall.

Anyone can post to this page:

The format is simple; For 30 days pledge your sobriety to yourself and make it official by posting daily to this tread either "confirming" or "denying" whether you have abstained from taking addy for that day.

Ex: Day 4: Confirmed!

Do this for 30 days, and, at the end congratulate yourself on a tough but well worth it start toward rebuilding a new, sober, and more beautiful you!

FW

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Day 1confirmed.I like this idea :) I left my phone at home today and just have my kindle at work. Not having access to add dealers helps me... also makes me feel like a child but gotta do what I gotta do. Just for today I stay sober...even as I write that I feel fake or nervous tho..cuz if given the chance I'm afraid I'll fail

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Congrats on day one Tessa! It's certainly not easy to quit at first but it will get easier! Stay active on this website and we'll do our best to help guide you to the finish line.

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Amen to that!  "I'm pulling for you.  We're all in this together" and "keep your stick on the ice"

 

Seriously though, take it one day at a time and remember that feeling like a kid and acting like a kid are not always a bad thing.

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Tessa It takes real courage to be the first one to do anything. I commend you for accepting this challenge and stepping out on faith where there are no promises. You can do it! So Plug in and Keep posting! Like Justin said we are all in this together. Congratulations on day 1!

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Tessa,

It's not an easy process, but you've begun a journey towards freedom and that's exciting. One of the first things I did when I quit was delete my dealer's numbers and for those I couldn't, I let them know that, although it was MY responsibility to not ask for adderall, please keep in mind I'm starting a difficult process and don't sell me anything. While many dealers aren't going to look out for your well-being, I highly suggest cutting ties, deleting numbers, whatever it takes. Do you feel comfortable taking those steps? I want to congratulate you on your decision!! You can do this!!! Sleep, Netflix, quittingadderall.com will be your best friends. One day, one hour, one minute at a time!

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Thanks guys! Day 3 on my way to look at wedding venues ;) yez im getting married:) ive also finally made my ancupuncture appointment .. anyone ever tryed this??? Apparently helps with addiction...

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Day 6. But let me tell u i hate the dreams they are enough to say fuck it. Every damn night i use in my dreams . Ive always remembered my dreams every morning and have been a vivid dreamer so its like i cant escape it . Last night my aunt and my grandma even used adderall? Ha wtf? And i of cpurse stole it all

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Day 6. But let me tell u i hate the dreams they are enough to say fuck it. Every damn night i use in my dreams . Ive always remembered my dreams every morning and have been a vivid dreamer so its like i cant escape it . Last night my aunt and my grandma even used adderall? Ha wtf? And i of cpurse stole it all

#winning

 

I had really messed up dreams when I was dealing with Ambien; enough to make me want to get as far from that stuff as possible.  Are the dreams disturbing your sleep cycle or are you getting a good night's rest?

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Im able to sleep through the night its just frustrating because when i wake up i realized i didnt use and it was juzt a dream but than i want to use. Also caved yesterday :( back to day 1

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What are you doing to prevent access to your pills?

 

It sounds like you don't have a solid quit plan "a failure to plan is a plan for failure" and I doubt that relapsing helps your self esteem very much.

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Im able to sleep through the night its just frustrating because when i wake up i realized i didnt use and it was juzt a dream but than i want to use. Also caved yesterday :( back to day 1

 

Tessa, thanks for being honest. That is really important. Have you considered getting rid of your pills and telling your doctor not to prescribe them due to abuse so you have no choice but to quit?

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Well i havent had a presxription in 5 years. I no... i get it from people dealers .. steal it :( ita bad so i ushually go off 5-8 days than get some and binge for 3

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Well i havent had a presxription in 5 years. I no... i get it from people dealers .. steal it :( ita bad so i ushually go off 5-8 days than get some and binge for 3

 

:( delete their numbers from your phone. I really want to see you kick this stuff for good because I know that you'll be much happier once you get adjusted to sober life.

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Defibitly do delte bit i go back . My phone is key for it. Sometimes i leave it st home when im at work. I deinitly know and understand the tools to stay positive and sober im in therapy and everything so its frustrating that i can wake up journal feel good eat good say today is going to b a good one than i get to wherever im going and if add is there boom i go for it. Sometimes very rarely i have strong will power. If i stay sober for months will i still have that weak willpower?

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Defibitly do delte bit i go back . My phone is key for it. Sometimes i leave it st home when im at work. I deinitly know and understand the tools to stay positive and sober im in therapy and everything so its frustrating that i can wake up journal feel good eat good say today is going to b a good one than i get to wherever im going and if add is there boom i go for it. Sometimes very rarely i have strong will power. If i stay sober for months will i still have that weak willpower?

 

Tessa,

you don't sound like you're in a healthy frame of mind right now. I'm pretty sure the addy is wreaking havoc on your ability to think clearly. It was kind of hard to understand what you were typing. The reason why you have weak willpower is because you don't have a good enough reason to quit. It's as simple as that. Yes, your willpower will improve the longer you stay off addy. I want to tell you that you have much more at stake in your life than what you may have already lost. Think about your fiance. Do you have a job? Write down a list of the top 100 golden reasons to quit adderall. Write down every benefit you can possibly think of. I did this before I quit and it made me realize that I had every reason in the WORLD to quit adderall and few, if any benefits of staying on it.

 

Here were my top 25 or so reasons to quit. 100 would take me too long. I wrote these while I was on adderall before I quit. They are in no particular order. I just wrote them down as they came to my mind.

  • I deeply desire to become motivated once again (at the time this was just a dream. Now it's a reality.)
  • I deeply desire to be able to increase in the weight room rather than decrease due to not eating enough
  • I deeply desire the self-confidence I once had (at the time this was just a dream. Now it's a reality.)
  • I deeply desire my creativity and wit which has become nearly non-existent
  • I deeply desire to be able to relate and connect with people like a human being rather than being the anti-social and hard-hearted person I have become (at the time this was just a dream. Now it's a reality.)
  • I deeply desire to be able to do well in school once again
  • I deeply desire to be able to make strong relationships with people once again. 
  • I deeply desire to be able to wake up early in the morning, have a cup of coffee, and feel alert and focused. (at the time this was just a dream. Now it's a reality.)
  • I deeply desire to not have to hide the animal that has caused me to lose more than I can imagine
  • I deeply desire to be able to regain the ability to have a sense of humor and the ability to have fun with others simply by laughing and joking. (Reality)
  • I deeply desire to be able to tell my family I'm doing well and really mean it. (Reality)
  • I deeply desire to be responsible once again and have the willpower to get done what needs to be done. (still working on it)
  • I deeply desire to have thriving relationships with everyone in my life and have the ability to give genuinely good advice to people close to me as I have had before adderall. (Haha can't believe I wrote this)
  • I deeply desire to truly care for others feelings and to be able to empathize and relate to people in my life like before adderall. (It's really hard to even remember what that felt like. What a relief that that's over with!)
  • I deeply desire to be able to confidently achieve every one of my long-term goals.
  • I deeply desire to be able to say that I finished a tough project of some sort and did it with natural perseverance and work ethic. (Check)
  • I deeply desire to have passion for life and developing my natural talents once again.
  • I deeply desire to find financial success after completing college. (If I didn't quit adderall I wasn't going anywhere in life period)
  • I deeply desire to start a family one day - and be a good and loving father.
  • I deeply desire to begin building a reputation that I can be proud of once again. (I ruined my reputation completely on adderall)
  • I deeply desire to find the girl of my dreams and have fun looking for her ;). (lol)
  • I deeply desire to have a healthy mind and body once again. (Check)
  • I deeply desire to show anyone who has doubted me that I CAN quit adderall and that I CAN get back to the real Dillon
  • I deeply desire to be on the track to success rather than failure once again
  • I deeply for my life to be wonderful. (getting there)
  • I deeply desire to never take a single pill of adderall ever again. (I won't be able to check this off until the day I die.)
  • I desire with all of my heart to be able to quit adderall without any setbacks on my first try as I know there is no other way of accomplishing any of these goals without quitting adderall forever.

After I wrote these, there was just no damn way that I could relapse. As you might be able to notice, i DEEPLY DESIRED to get off of adderall. I didn't just kind of want it. That was the ONLY thing I wanted at the time. Nothing else was important but getting off adderall because adderall was the single thing stopping me from doing everything that I wanted to do with my life. I could see it in front of my face. I couldn't accomplish anything on my list without quitting adderall so it became pretty clear what my options were. I hope you can find the strength to quit forever Tessa, you're seriously making it a lot harder than it has to be. It's not your fault though. I understand that some people, including myself, need to hit rock bottom before they can quit. I had to lose just about everything in my life before I decided to quit. If it takes you losing your marriage and whatever else, then that's what will happen. I am sure you will get to a point where you will quit. It is just a matter of how much more are going to lose? I am praying for you.

 

Blesbro

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Blesbro,

That list was fantastic. Thanks for sharing. I never did do one of those lists, that I can think of, but mine would've had a lot of similarities to yours. It felt good to read those, and think in my head, check! Adderall was getting me nowhere. I absolutely couldn't have lived a life moving forward with it. I was stuck in neutral and going in reverse quickly!

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Ashley,

I know doesn't it feel AMAZING to see how far you've progressed since quitting? I didn't even really have a good grasp of how much progress I've made until I read my list last night. Check!! I remember reading the list to my parents when I told them about my addiction and my plan to quit. I could hardly get through 1 sentence without having to stop and take a deep breath I was bawling my eyes out so hard. We've come a long way. Adderall seriously will strip any adderallic of almost everything they have if they don't quit soon enough. It's so sad but I truly feel like I'm going to be stronger because of it. No regrets just moving forward. If i didn't try addy in high school, I'm sure I would have in college or later in life. I'm just glad I got that over with early in my life. 110% recovery let's goo!!

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Ashley,

I know doesn't it feel AMAZING to see how far you've progressed since quitting? I didn't even really have a good grasp of how much progress I've made until I read my list last night. Check!! I remember reading the list to my parents when I told them about my addiction and my plan to quit. I could hardly get through 1 sentence without having to stop and take a deep breath I was bawling my eyes out so hard. We've come a long way. Adderall seriously will strip any adderallic of almost everything they have if they don't quit soon enough. It's so sad but I truly feel like I'm going to be stronger because of it. No regrets just moving forward. If i didn't try addy in high school, I'm sure I would have in college or later in life. I'm just glad I got that over with early in my life. 110% recovery let's goo!!

Dude you inspire me! Thanks for sharing all this stuff.

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Dude you inspire me! Thanks for sharing all this stuff.

 

 Thanks Lunax that means a lot to me. I'm glad to hear it! You're more than welcome :)

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