I believe I can do it this time

[Freebird]

Hey guys this month would have been a year since I quit using adderall. But with one minor set back last month and then earlier this month.... I hate to admit it but I used more than a few. I have now been off of adderall for 5 days.

Physically and mentally I am feeling surprisingly well. Of course once I crashed for a couple of days to catch up with the sleep I had lost.

I am feeling very optimistic right now. I think I am in a better place mentally than I have been in a very long time.

I had a long and honest talk with my 19 year old son last night. He has been away at college for the most part since I quit adderall and hasn't seen how it has effected my day to day activities. Until recently when he came home for the summer. He said he can see a dramatic difference in my personality and has actually been hearing me laugh out loud. Which he said he hasn't heard me laugh in quite some time. He encouraged me to let someone come in and clean our house and he said that he would talk to my other son, who is 18 years old and they would made an conscious effort to help with stuff around the house. He also said while he is home this summer he wants to me to go outside and get active doing something instead of sitting around inside all day feeling sorry for myself.

Soooo I guess I will start the 30 day challenge. And with the help and encouragement from all of you and my family. I really think I can do this!!!

[Freedom's Wings]

We're right here with you Robin!

[Zerokewl]

This post took a lot of courage and honesty Robin. You are in my prayers.  

[Shambo]

Oh Robin. You encourage me so much more than you know. I'm so proud of you! I had no idea you'd made the leap. I'm cheering you on!

[JustinW]

Good for you Robin!  You can't do everything and delegating will help ensure your success.

[SweetCarolinee]

Robin,

I couldn't be happier or prouder of you while reading your post! That did take so much courage and honestly telling us what has been going on with you lately and thank you for that. That took a lot.

We all go through hard times, set backs and road blocks, as I like to call them and hopefully you got it all out of your system and now you are fully prepared and ready for your Adderall quit!

Plus, you have the full support of your sons and family behind you… That has to feel amazing and they sound so sweet and clearly care about you and love you so much! And don't forget you also have our full support behind you as well

I not only think you can do it Robin, I know you can… We'll be rootin' ya on in the 30 day challenge!

[Jon]

Robin, you make a good point about needing help in keeping up with our daily responsibilities. Day upon day of failure to keep up can lead to relapse, like it did in your case. Mike made reference to having to watch some fish die in our aquariums in the beginning because we do not have the resources to save them. Not having the necessary resources can drag on far longer than "in the beginning", in my experience also.

 

It's been said before, but quitting adderall is, without hesitation, the hardest thing I have ever done. It is downright disheartening. Your honesty is refreshing and your perseverance is inspiring. Thank you for sharing your experience. Best wishes with your renewed commitment. I have confidence in you!