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DrewK15

9 Months

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Hi all. Today marks 9 months of continuous sobriety from amphetamines and alcohol for me. I am blessed to have made it this far and reaching milestones feels great. Thank you all for your contributions to this site, it has been instrumental in my recovery. To those who are new or early on in recovery, I used for 4 years. Near the end of my addiction I would binge upwards of 100mg/day for a week at a time and drink probably 12 units of alcohol a day. It was dark. 

Physically I feel like I have made a full recovery. My energy levels are close to normal, bloodwork is normal, blood pressure/heart rate are good. I had headaches for probably the first 6 months that have gone away. I exercise 6 days/week and sleep well. Best of all I’m not hungover and/or in physical pain all of the time. 

Psychologically and emotionally I feel better, but I still have a long way to go. My mental clarity and cognitive abilities are back, but depression and anxiety are still a big factor in my life. I struggle with feeling like nothing really matters, generalized disinterest, hopelessness, and naturally, low motivation. I’m currently re-evaluating my career and working on re-entering the workforce and it’s tough. I’ve put a lot of effort into different things, but none of them seem interesting at all anymore. Starting at the bottom is really hard. 

Most importantly I now view Adderall as an escape rather than a solution, and it’s not a road I’m willing to take right now.

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1 hour ago, DrewK15 said:

Most importantly I now view Adderall as an escape rather than a solution

^ this this this!!! 

it's crazy how powerful that realization is. you recognize Adderall for what it is. some people escape or numb themselves with alcohol, marijuana, opiates.. for us it's stimulants.

congrats on 9 months, this is huge (:

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This is so inspirational to read. Stories like this help me to see that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Eventually we all have to face up to our issues :(  I managed to escape for 2 yrs but now it’s all caught up with me and I’m having to deal with it and it’s not much fun! 

I’m glad to hear things are going well for you and your overall well-being has improved tremendously. Thanks for all the advice and encouragement you have given to me and others online. It has really helped to keep me motivated in my efforts to wean myself off amphetamines, which I’m finding really tough. 

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