Well, I almost made it through the semester. I did not take adderall or vyvanse a single time. However, I did use foculin to study and to write papers. Even with foculin, I found it incredibly difficult to study and was no where near as motivated to study as I was on adderall.
I have one more semester and then the bar. At this point, I have no idea how I'm going to survive the bar. I have no motivation to study and I'm completely burnt out on school. I also have a difficult time being productive at work. My job isn't mentally demanding, but it is monotonous. I find myself surfing the internet often (stimulation I suppose). I don't mind manual labor, but sitting behind a desk and using my brain is near impossible.
My confidence is definitely low. I have never developed sound study habits outside of adderall. I'm having a difficult time believing I will ever develope the work ethic and skills I need to become an attorney.
I'm still debating whether to take adderall for the bar and then be done for good. I haven't taken adderall since last May nor have I really been that tempted to take it.
Any advice?