Addgirl426

Ok so basically i've been clean of adderall for 2 months but the 10 pound weight gain and the lack of focus/motivation is enough to make me reconsider taking adderall... i'm studying for my trading license and my CFA so i need complete focus. There is a part of me that recalls the horrible fatigue that accompanied withdrawals, which also makes me hesitate but then i'm thinking perhaps i could only take adderall prior to studying as opposed to a daily dosage. I would appreciate your complete candor wrt my thoughts. I guess i'm hoping that you all would offer a new perspective or perhaps suggestions on how to focus and minimize weight gain. Thank you in advance.

So it has been over 2 weeks since i've been free from Adderall. My mind is clear(ish) and my energy is returning. The drawback of not taking the Adderall is that my appetite has become insatiable. Since being on Adderall, i forgot what hunger felt like. I've already gained over 6 pounds and i'm scared of gaining additional weight. My fear of weight gain has directly contributed to my continued abuse of Adderall. My hope is that this fear is not going to make me revert to prior behaviors.

I think that's a terrific sign...Sometimes we are torn in the decisions we make but i think that your dream implies that you're determined to fully recover... i'm proud of you! :-)

Do sit ups to get everything flowing again :-)... it's working for me... or drink coffee...

That's a great suggestion... i certainly don't want to risk my progress by acting on impulse :-)

So adderall has played a significant role in my quest for perfection for the past 5 years. Initially, i used it to help me study for my actuarial exams, then i started using it to maintain a low weight and then i needed it to get through the day. Apart from adderall, i also abused caffeine while totally neglecting my health. Five years later, not only am i suffering from severe mal-nutrition (i no longer menstruate), but also, i feel as if i have not accomplished anything significant in my life as adderall has become my center. I'm tired of being dependent on an external substance and i'm tired of the mood swings associated with adderall use. On Sunday 19th of February, i decided to no longer use adderall or caffeine. The past few days i have had major headaches and fatigue along with an increase in appetite (i also started taking iron and b12 vitamins). I was in bed for Tuesday and Wednesday and i'm back on my feet today feeling pretty optimistic(did some yoga this morning). I know that i will probably start drinking coffee again, but i'm determined to not use adderall. We shall see how strong i am since i have quite a few adderall remaining. Since i'm being forthcoming, i must admit that i'm concerned about the weight gain, but that's a whole other matter i'm struggling with. Regardless, it's time for change and i'm stepping up to the plate.