So adderall has played a significant role in my quest for perfection for the past 5 years. Initially, i used it to help me study for my actuarial exams, then i started using it to maintain a low weight and then i needed it to get through the day. Apart from adderall, i also abused caffeine while totally neglecting my health. Five years later, not only am i suffering from severe mal-nutrition (i no longer menstruate), but also, i feel as if i have not accomplished anything significant in my life as adderall has become my center. I'm tired of being dependent on an external substance and i'm tired of the mood swings associated with adderall use. On Sunday 19th of February, i decided to no longer use adderall or caffeine. The past few days i have had major headaches and fatigue along with an increase in appetite (i also started taking iron and b12 vitamins). I was in bed for Tuesday and Wednesday and i'm back on my feet today feeling pretty optimistic(did some yoga this morning). I know that i will probably start drinking coffee again, but i'm determined to not use adderall. We shall see how strong i am since i have quite a few adderall remaining. Since i'm being forthcoming, i must admit that i'm concerned about the weight gain, but that's a whole other matter i'm struggling with. Regardless, it's time for change and i'm stepping up to the plate.