Mrs79

Lets not promote the idea that willpower is enough for those out there who prob really need to be in a 12 step program.

You are describing something different than addiction cassie. Addiction is an incurable chronic disease just like type 1 diabetes. People can choose to take insulin but they cant "will" their sugar levels. People can choose to treat their disease of addiction just like they choose to treat their type 1 diabetes.

Addiction is an incurable chronic disease.

Once you graduate you will have a job...there will always be SOMETHING. I did the same thing as you. I am on day 3 off. For me it is suprisingly not that bad but i think i built up a tolerance long ago. I have taken 30 mg for 6 years. Never more never less. I took 30 mg everyday. I am also on wellbutrin which i think helps too. I want to get pregnant soon so this has to stop at some point. The days where i told myself i would take adderall up until we try to get pregnant are now here. So....the stopping point will have to come one day....

I am only on day 2, however, i think the positive effects of adderall left me a long time ago. I have been on 30 mg xr daily for 6 years. I have never taken more than that in a day. I currently take wellbutrin and deplin as well as l tyrosine, fish oil, daily vitamins, and vitamin d. I am always very tired and well...sad. I feel like my current life was built upon how i was on adderall (when i was still in the "this drug is life changing stage"). I am a researcher and married to someone who works out of town for lengthy periods of time....these things were awesome on adderall and terrible off of it. I hate my job, i miss my husband and have no friends where i live. This sucks. Any similar stories out there?