whatnext

I have been off adderall for almost 2 years, and have been in the working world for 5. I have struggled with work since quitting but have always been able to stay just above water. Juggling lots of tasks is difficult and gives me anxiety, and I don't enjoy some projects the way I would have when I was on adderall. But my bigger struggle is trying to decide if I'm in the right field. I feel somewhat frozen and unable to make a choice about what I want to do with my life. I have no gut feeling or direction. Sometimes I wonder if being on adderall for 12+ years hindered my ability to really develop a specific interest or career path. Does anyone else struggle with this? I've had several different jobs, I'm just not sure what I really want to do, or what I am good at.

I have held a couple jobs since quitting adderall and have been able to focus on major writing projects and see them to completion. It does get better. Sometimes you have to really block yourself from external distractions - I find that putting on electronic music helps, even if it sounds lame.