Checking In

[oswhid]

Hey yall.  It's been a while! You can search on my old posts to see my back story if you want the details.  I'm the woman whose husband got on adderall at the age of 49  and went through 11 years old of hell before he finally quit.  I spent years checking this site every day and then years pretty much every few days.  Now I maybe check once every few months if that. It's been almost 6 1/2 years since he quit.   It took about 3 years for me not to be hyper vigilant for any sign of relapse. But over the last few years, I've finally been able to put the worry behind me.  This site gave me the knowledge I needed to fight to get him to quit.  I hope that it continues to help people who seek it. 

I see that there's been several posts recently from people who are in a similar situation as I was: the surrealness of the 180 degree change in personality, the blame, the lies, the screaming and rage, the lack of remorse and, of course, the hopelessness.  I feel your pain.  I remember the times I sobbed in the garage so he couldn't hear me because my crying only made him angrier.  I got lucky. 

Since I hadn't posted in so long, I did want to let everyone know that things are still on track.  I didn't want anyone to think that no news was bad news.  Thanks again.  This forum save my life and his.