Popular Post ETigerlily Posted June 1, 2023 Popular Post Report Share Posted June 1, 2023 Hey everyone! I posted on here for the first time a few days ago at the height of my withdrawal symptoms. I wanted to share some of my experience and the positives I'm experiencing in case it might help someone. I truly could not see the light at the end of the tunnel for the first couple of weeks and I'm so happy I pushed through. One thing I've really noticed is when your brain starts craving the drug and you start obsessing over the though of taking it, it makes withdrawal symptoms appear much worse. If you can push through that, it really does get better. I let myself be really lazy for the first couple weeks...I've never allowed myself to do that before and although I fought feelings of guilt the whole time it definitely helped me. If it's possible for you to do that, do it. If not, just be really kind to yourself. Everything will feel hard. This is not a small feat and some people are never able to get off of these drugs. Every day is a win. The first 2 weeks/16ish days I felt completely numb. I wouldn't even call it depression, I just didn't care about anything. Everything was uncomfortable and nothing felt good. I just looked forward to going to sleep every night. I don't feel extremely motivated now, but I'd say my natural dopamine is back. I feel much happier and more lighthearted. I think the biggest change is how much more present I feel. Everyone around me says I seem completely different. I actually enjoy spending time with people now, I'm not rushing to get home and complete the next task and be in my own world. I'm not so stressed about the future. I just feel so much more like myself. No "zombie" mode. I have lulls in the day and then I have moments of feeling better. I used to be SO impatient before. When you glorify how you felt on this drug, it's easy to forget how agitated and impatient it makes you, which is just a different form of suffering. It just feels like I'm actually living life now, even when I'm doing humdrum boring things all day like going to the grocery store and cleaning and sending off emails. I honest to god never thought I could enjoy reality without this drug, and I am so grateful I've pushed through to see the light. I do exercise every day. I never want to, it always sucks at first, but it makes me feel better. I think the key to living without this drug is knowing that you're not going to feel motivated at first and you just do it anyway. All you have to do is start. I promise that the feeling of accomplishment in a sober brain feels better than the drug induced motivation to do the task in the first place. I also didn't realize how much I was crashing every evening. I have always been prone to a bit of depression in the evenings, but it was way worse on Vyvanse. I had an existential crisis most nights and needed several drinks to wind down. I still have urges to drink and will have one or two every few nights, but I'm not a bottomless pit for alcohol like I was before. I've gained more self control. I'm sure I'll have some dips back into withdrawal symptoms, but I just wanted to share some hope. Reading other peoples success stories really helped me. Stay strong, everyone! 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
risingpheonix Posted June 2, 2023 Report Share Posted June 2, 2023 What a great report! You're doing great. Not needing to drink to come down is one of the great benefits of getting rid of this drug. Keep it going and keep sharing Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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