SidneyMarie Posted June 11, 2013 Report Share Posted June 11, 2013 Hi - I've never done this before but I never realized I had a problem until now. I've been taking adderall since 2008 and have been trying to quit probably the whole time but always gave in and took my pill. Before adderall, I was charismatic and doing everything I've ever wanted to do. I got out of a relationship right when I started using and have been single ever since. Ironically, finding a husband and settling down has been my focus these last 4 years. All I've done is get amazingly thin and focused on my appearance (my face seems more wrinkled than it should be and i have so many dark spots - i blame the adderall) I feel like i've been spinning my wheels. For some reason, last week Monday I decided not to take my pill. That turned into a whole week. I cannot believe I spent so many years in my little adderall bubble. Just typing this makes me cry. Does anyone else feel like they can never get that time back? I'm also terrified of gaining weight - so far I feel like I have but the scale has barely changed. Its so frustrating -- its like I have to choose between living or living thin. I love how much more "aware" I've been and can feel myself becoming happier but I'm scared I'll choose being thin over happy. Any tips/suggestions? Thank you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted June 11, 2013 Report Share Posted June 11, 2013 This was my EXACT reason why I was so scared of getting off of it. I have found a new path in my recovery from the eating disorder that lurked beneath the Adderall addiction. It is the path of intuitive eating. I haven't spoken about it much because it's taken me so freaking long to get it....like a year really. It is the most awesome thing in the world. Kick the Adderall habit, eat intuitively, and live free. It's so WORTH IT!! You'll NEVER regret this decision, but you have to be willing to persist in kicking the Adderall addiction and not fall back to it when you struggle with the eating. There is hope. You can do this. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SidneyMarie Posted June 11, 2013 Author Report Share Posted June 11, 2013 Thanks! Is intuitive eating just eating when you're hungry because that's impossible for me! My biggest thing is it's depressing just thinking about how I can never get that time back. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SidneyMarie Posted June 11, 2013 Author Report Share Posted June 11, 2013 And there's definitely an eating disorder lurking. The adderall is what initially helped my bulimia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xdizzycowx Posted June 13, 2013 Report Share Posted June 13, 2013 Hey Sidney- I just got off Adderall about a month ago after taking 30mg xrs since 2007. I look back and feel like I wasted a lot of time that I could've been myself but I use that as a way to stay off the med. The one thing Ive found incredibly useful is using the Nike+ running app or Track my run on my smartphone I never used to workout but this got me going. The ability to see your progress over time and as you progress you wont feel bad/worried about the dreaded weight gain 'after adderall.' Its worked for me so far. Wish you the best of luck! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted June 13, 2013 Report Share Posted June 13, 2013 Sidney, I have a few websites that have been helpful for me during this past year. Yes, intuitive eating is eating when hungry and stopping when full. I did not know how to do this for the past 20 years because I was constantly dieting (relying on external plans) to tell me what to eat and how much. The problem is that dieting causes binge eating. So you are always stuck between dieting and binge eating. Diet - break diet - binge - Diet - break diet - binge. Intuitive eating is the way little kids eat and the way naturally thin people eat. Eat whatever you want, but eat when you are hungry and stop when full. You will return to your natural weight if you eat this way and the binges cease. It takes time though and it's pretty tricky to learn at first. I am still in the process. I struggled a lot in the beginning because I'd get scared and return to calorie counting/dieting...then I'd binge again of course. So therefore, I've learned the quicker I am go let go of the dieting the quicker I am recover. Anyhow, here are some of the sites that I've found helpful. http://intuitiveeati...unity.org/forum http://helpforeatingdisorder.com/ (this lady Nina is awesome! love her!) and http://www.bulimiahelp.org/ The goal of all these sites is intuitive eating or "normal eating". Oh and another one I discovered a LONG time ago is http://normaleating.com/. One more! http://www.josiespinardi.com/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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