Cassie Posted June 21, 2013 Report Share Posted June 21, 2013 I've been having bad cravings for Adderall this week, for the first time in a long time. My mind will even start racing as if I am on it. It's really annoying. I had a dream last night that I bought some Adderall from a friend, then started popping them in the shower. Kind of funny, not sure why I needed to be in the shower to consume them. It wasn't one of those dreams where I woke up before I swallowed it either. No, I went all out and poured a bunch down my gullet (while bathing), and even felt the high kick in. Then I woke up. Anyway, just thought I'd share my weird dream and let you know that, yes, you will have hardcore cravings sometimes, even after a year and a half sober. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mrobz Posted June 21, 2013 Report Share Posted June 21, 2013 It's called a using dream. Normal in recovery. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted June 23, 2013 Report Share Posted June 23, 2013 I've had a few of them as well Cassie, but they are so rare. They are scary as shit though! I always wake up in a pool of sweat and thanking God I am still sober. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted June 24, 2013 Report Share Posted June 24, 2013 I've been having bad cravings for Adderall this week, for the first time in a long time. My mind will even start racing as if I am on it. It's really annoying. I had a dream last night that I bought some Adderall from a friend, then started popping them in the shower. Kind of funny, not sure why I needed to be in the shower to consume them. It wasn't one of those dreams where I woke up before I swallowed it either. No, I went all out and poured a bunch down my gullet (while bathing), and even felt the high kick in. Then I woke up. Anyway, just thought I'd share my weird dream and let you know that, yes, you will have hardcore cravings sometimes, even after a year and a half sober. Or longer than a year and a half sober. In my case, after the school semester ended I went into terrible terrible PAWS, which has been going on for a month and finally beginning to subside. During the semester I was in PAWS but wayyy too busy to notice it as much. When the semester ended, and i had time to relax, my brain was like WTF did u do to me? . I felt like a rash/itch in my head just blew up huge. I was seriously craving it, craving cigarettes even as well, and grinding and clenching my teeth. Hardcore cravings and discomfort. I feel for you Cassie. This drug knows how to linger. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted June 25, 2013 Report Share Posted June 25, 2013 I've been having bad cravings for Adderall this week, for the first time in a long time. My mind will even start racing as if I am on it. It's really annoying. I had a dream last night that I bought some Adderall from a friend, then started popping them in the shower. Kind of funny, not sure why I needed to be in the shower to consume them. It wasn't one of those dreams where I woke up before I swallowed it either. No, I went all out and poured a bunch down my gullet (while bathing), and even felt the high kick in. Then I woke up. Anyway, just thought I'd share my weird dream and let you know that, yes, you will have hardcore cravings sometimes, even after a year and a half sober. Cassie, That sounds terrible. Ugh. Sorry you're going through that, but thank you for sharing. I've been having some uncomfortable thoughts about adderall lately, and it has annoyed the crap out of me, after a year and 2 months. Your post made me feel less alone. Hang in there! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cassie Posted June 25, 2013 Author Report Share Posted June 25, 2013 Thanks, I'm feeling better now. Stupid PAWS. Usually when I get PAWS I feel really anxious and incompetent, like I'm a fraud who has no confidence. I've found that faking it helps a lot. Just faking that I'm calm, confident and collected starts to snap my mind out of it. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tessa0412 Posted June 30, 2013 Report Share Posted June 30, 2013 Dude so annoying I usually use after this, try getting a good enlightening mind opening. Book I like anything from Sylvia Browne of eckaretre tolle or deepak Chopra end that brain before bed on a good note Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Motivation_Follows_Action Posted June 30, 2013 Report Share Posted June 30, 2013 Cassie - so glad you stayed strong. I've been super busy and traveling a ton but think of you guys often and would love nothing more than an afternoon to catch up. So much stuff going on. Still strong, and trying to get healthy too. Be strong - you know you're my role model. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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